the rest is still unwritten :|

hey guys :) i haven't blogged for days, i know : the weather has been pretty weird these past few days. it would always be like "super cold in the morning, and super duper HOT by noon".. it's crazzzyy; but i guess i like this kind of weather better than having a freezing weather the whole entire day : anyways, yesterday after school, me and Iris went to BestbBuy just to look for a lithium coin for my camera, but unfortunately, we didn't find any :( since we didn't see one, or any at all, we just headed straight to Mcdonald's and ate. MY TREAT, for sure :D i love Iris. i mean, as a friend :D we can just talk about anything and everything when we're together. from school, to boys, to lovelife, and YES, even to sex. haha. she's soo fun to be with. i can totally see myself in her. we're pretty much together every single day and i'm enjoying every second of it. i've met her not too long ago but it feels like i've known her since birth. haha. i'm soo close to her now, and vice versa. i guess i just really miss hanging out with my cousin who i happened to be my bestfriend as well, that's why i get so stoked when i hang out with Iris :( i just miss having a bestfriend :(

anyways. enough with being emo. haha. i really hate that word, but sometimes, i can just be really emo : err. i don't have a valentine, but i'm inlove with someone. and i mean, DEEPLY! i know it's wrong, because first of all, the guy that i like has a special someone already, but hell, I CAN'T HELP IT. it hurts too much when i see him with her, but i can't stop my feelings for him. INFATUATION, you'll say, but i guess it's something deeper than that. it's confusing i know, but what can i do? it's not like i can tell my heart to stop liking him anytime i want. it's not easy. what's worse is, the guy used to like me too, but the thing is, he never asked me out. he asked for my number, but that was it. shit, i hate this : yesterday, since we had a sub for 6th period, and since all we had to do was watch a movie, and since he only sits behind me, he whispered to me asking if i wanted to chat with him. ofcourse, i said YES. so he placed a desk next to his, and asked me to sit there. ugh. i hate it when he does things that truly make me fall even more in love with him : so there, we talked about THINGS! like past relationships, and stuff. i was even shocked when he opened up to me about his first "you know". he said he regrets it, because the girl totally is a SLUT! yes, i know she is one, because she dated almost every guy i know in school. but oh well. it feels awkward when a guy opens up to you like that. especially when you don't even know what is it that is going on between you two. it's weird, but i'm happy that atleast HE TRUSTS me. he's making me craaazyy! like totally : i won't name him anymore, but let's just put it like this: i know him, he knows me, i'm single, he's taken, he's my friend, i'm his friend.. and i'm more than HAPPY when i talk to him.

watched Pearl Harbor last night and hell was it... uhm, what's the word? . I KNOW, i'm super duper LATE already, BUT mind you, it totally touched my heart. i loved it. Thanks to my History teacher, for teaching us about World War II, because of her, i started loving History and was so intoxicated to watch this film. honestly speaking, i've never really liked History, but when i started learning about what happened back in December 7th, 1941, i started liking learning WWII. the videos that we watch in class are all so touching. this film is soo good. the casts played really really well. i loved the intro, because from that part, i knew, the entire film would be worth watching FOR REALS. i loved loved loved it. t'was hella sad :( but i salute America. i could totally see the hunger on each and everyone's faces that they really wanted to take revenge. to show what they got, and to prove every single person in the world that Americans will always be there for each other. i cried soo many times while watching it :( it really did touch my heart. seeing people dying, seeing people get shoot by unknown people, seeing people drowning, seeing people burning, and seeing people helping each other totally HIT ME. it did, for reals :( i loved this movie. now i guess i understand why my ROTC instructors keep telling us that we don't totally have a single right to wear their uniform. because honestly, we really don't. we haven't proven anything to the world yet. and even though my dream is way far from being in the military, i will forever give respect to the ROTC uniform, and also, to the people who SERVE in the military, because in our hearts; they truly are America's HEROES!