just another day.

i woke up today at like 11 something. haha :D atleast it wasn't that late. bwahaha! i watched ASAP at 12, and i saw Ate Irish again. wheeew! i was soo excited to see her perform. hahaha. she sang one of my favorite songs called "Because of You" by Kelly Clarkson and i hella loved it :) i almost cried ='( it's the song i was singing in the plane when i went to the Philippines and when i came back here ='( i just looove it. i can totally relate to it. that was the other one i requested for her to sing during one of PDA's Expulsion Nights, along with the song "Reflection" but she ended up singing "Hiram". it was okay though :D i got so shocked when i heard her singing it earlier. i almost cried, fah'reals. after that, i kept watching it on Youtube and on ABS-CBN Now ='( i can't get enough of it, so now, it's my new background song here :) and my new background image too. *sigh* i wonder what's in that song that makes me cry whenever i hear it.

and then.... she played the violin! WOAAAHH! i was soo amazed. i haven't seen her played in such a looong time. she was soo good. i must admit, the whole 6 of 'em did kinda mess up, but their instruments pulled it off. haha. t'was a superb. i kept watching it earlier too. hahaha. i love Ate Irish :D i still can't believe she actually mentioned ME on her ktext. oh my gahdd.. haha. i really felt soo special for a day. hahaha! i love love love Ate Irish. it's funny how everyone i know keeps congratulating me for having mentioned on the ktext. haha. i'm soo lucky!

moving on... to the other side of me.. i've changed a lot. even my mom noticed it too. i don't know if i changed for the better, or for the worse though. this year started off pretty messed up for me. i just hated it, but i'm trying to atleast HAVE FUN now. i'm trying to be a better person, but it seems like i'm getting weaker and weaker each day :| it's not good.. and it's killing me :|

i'm not happy anymore :| i'm sorry! i wanna be free.