new year. yeah, right!

"Happy New Year's Eve" everyone! as for me, i'm celebrating it with my family. my tita fixed the living room earlier. there're so many balloons around. it looks so cute, but at the same time, makes me sad ='( i miss spending New Years back home. with my whole family and cousins ='( i don't like New Years here. i never have, and i think, i never will as well ='( this year has been such a bad year for me. i didn't like it at all. i made a lot of mistakes. i did a lot of things i didn't mean to do. i've said a lot of bad things i wasn't suppose to say. all in all, 2006 has been the WORST year for me. i wish i could rewind everything that had happened to me. i wish i could get my mom's "trust" back, again. i know she doesn't trust me anymore because of the things i did wrong. but even if i don't get it back, i just hope that she won't give up on me. i love her soo much. i swear, i don't know what i'd do without her :|

btw, i changed my background song to "If Ever" by 3rd Storee, and as i'm typing this, i can't help but get teary-eyed. *sigh. i hate my life :| sometimes, i just wanna give up. but i know people will just say "pssh. ang arte mo na naman". whatever, i don't give a sh*t anymore. if i hate my life, i hate my life. you can't do anything about it :|

Ate Paris just gave me a gift right now. it's not a material thing but it means a lot to me. it made me cry ='( Ate Paris, if you're reading this, i just wanna say "Thank You" for everything. for understanding me, and for treating me as if i'm your real sister. God knows how much you mean to me. you're the kind of person who's not hard to get along with. you're such a nice person and you deserve to be happy, forever. i love you teh' :) always and forever.

i fixed my friendster profile awhile ago and i put the song "If Ever" there as well. *sigh. the song makes me cry but i can't stop listening to it. anyhow, i think, now i'm gonna be more active there than on myspace. myspace is getting on my nerves. too many people [especially old men from different countries i don't even know or never heard of] keep sending me "friend requests" and i don't even know who the hell they are. i've thought of deleting my myspace too, but i changed my mind. i don't wanna regret in the end.

"May you have a great New Year ahead of you" - i keep telling that to everyone but never to myself. oh well. i think i'll never have a great year anyway. i don't believe nor follow New Year's Resolutions but i have some, set for myself this year. i'll talk about it more tomorrow, in my next post.

3 bagay lang meron ako masaya na ko.. UNA - buhay ko.. PANGALAWA - pamilya ko.. PANGATLO - pera.. uuyyy..tampo sya.. nkalimutan mo na ba ? kaw ung una?

aawe ='( i'm into tagalog quotes right now! they're so fun to read. especially if you're bored, or if you're heartbroken or tired with your life. Quotes are very interesting to read. atleast for me, they are. i can just read them over and over again and won't get tired. they make my day! in short, they make me smile!!!! :) HOPE YOU HAVE A NICE NEW YEAR'S EVE! don't play with the firecrackers too much :D Take care of yourself and God Speed :D