ATTENTION:

nobody call my cell, my bill went up to high and i got in trouble, so don`t call my cellphone >:l my mother dearest took it away because of my stuuupid minutes. SHiT ! i told`ja. ugh. my bill went up to $100 plus. how the hell did that happen ? but anywaaaays. i still don`t knoee when i`ll be getting it back, but i hope it`s real soon. shizz. i need some communication ! hah. i haaate this :|

catch me on AIM or MYSPACE instead, yeah ? and btw, i can only use the landline for now. haha. call me or whatnot. hah. kayy, i think i wanna do some hw, since i can`t use my phone to communicate anyways. haha. i won`t be sleeping tonight [: and that`s fo`sho. byeee beautiful creatures of God ! i lalalala <3 you all, and please, pray for me ! ahaha jayykayy [[: with cherry on top [[:

PS. shoot. i just put a playlist on the navigation bar down there. haha. can`t help it. i love a lot of songs and i`m tired of changing it every day, so yeah, i just hecka decided to make a playlist and whatnot. haha ! i loooove the songs. you SHOULD/MUST listen to all of em. you`ll get nightmares if you don`t.. you knoee i`m not kidding [[: goodluck ! GO ON GIRL ! hah. that song`s hecka sickk !

ohmygod. can somebody please tell me to stop changing my layout ? dayumm. i can`t help it. it hecka became my hobby now. hah. i haaate seeing simple, white layouts, because the more i do, the more my mind pushes me to change my default. hah. awesome ! i need to stop this, fer`reals. i love this one, though. lawls. it looks cute in Internet Explorer, but in Mozilla, it looks different. whatever, i still love it [: i made my own one earlier but it doesn`t hecka cooperate with IE. so nevermind. i`ll stick to this one.

went to church. lunch at Red Lobsters [my life], then back home. i`m now home alone. aawee. they went to my mom`s friend`s parteey again, which was supposed to be last Sunday, but the person got hospitalized, so they`re doing it today instead. haha. i didn`t go, cause.. i just din`t want to. haha. i think Nico`s coming over. i don`t know. he said he wants to watch a movie, but i`m kinda keeping myself away from him. psh. nevermind. i just wanna watch by myself. i wanna watch... uhm... Chainsaw Massacre, again ! hahh. i just wanna feel the feeling of being scared, again. lawls. craazy !

Ateh Rharha. i miss and i love you soo much, too :| i feel soo sad that we don`t get to talk online as much anymore. woaahh ! i`m gonna miss you soo much when you... you know what i mean. ouch ! i haate to hear you sad, because i`ve known you as a bubby person who always gives me jokes when i`m sad. aaawe ! i miss you soo much. whenever i hear the song "Over It" playing, you`re always the first person that pops in my head. you may not know this, but everytime you send me a text msg, even if we both know that it`s hecka expensive, it truly makes me happy because i really feel special and loved by you. aawe. you know how badly i wanted to have an older sister, but right now, it feels like you`re my own because of the way you treat me. i wanna cry, i swear. i`m getting teary-eyed already. i just... really.... miss you. but, whatever happens, always remember that even though i`m halfway across the world from you, you`ll always remain special to me. aawe.

it`s been a week since i last saw her, and it`s soo hard :| i miss her soo much. *tears*.

noooo ! I DON`T MISS YOU ANYMORE !

wish me luck [:

hey, bby. haha. jayykayy [[: just came home from a partyyy up in Mira Mesa with my mom and Jan. aawhs. t`was my mom`s friend`s party. haha. the place was gorgeeeeous, and so were the people [[: i didn`t really have that much fun, cause you knoee, there weren`t much teens in there to hang around with, but whatever. haha. i just.. uhm. ate, and played with the lil kids. hah. then yeah. on the way home, when we were driving along freeway, i almost cried :| aawhs. i just remembered Ateh Irish, because last week, she was just here, right in that place too, but now.. she`s all gone. aawhs ! i miss her soo much and words aren`t even enough to express everything that i feel right now. ugh ! so yeah. the place was kinda far, but as what i said last week, i loooove driving along freeway. damn ! the views are justttt.. hella. spectacular. haha ! so there. when i came home, i took a short nap in my room since i woke up early in the morning today. YEAHH ! woke up 2 hours later. hah. went on the computer and saw a bunch of msgs from people on AIM ! hah. forgot to put an AWAY MSG again. ugh. i haaaate that. i`m sorry, i`m sorry, i`m sorry. i promise i won`t leave it hanging ever again. hah. it`s soo annoying :| so yeah. i decided to fix my old dropshots because i have kinda neglected it these past few months, but then, i gooooot laaaazy, haha, so i decided to make a new one. damn ! it took me forever to transfer the pictures from the old one into the new one because there were lots of em. i`m not even done yet until now, but i decided to stop for awhile because i got soo tired. hahaha. i might just finish it up one of these days. aawhs. i promise i won`t abandon it anymore :| haha. i knoee everyone has dropshots already, and it`s just sooo cool. haha. myspace + dropshots = life. hah. fer`reals ? YEAHH ! VISIT MY DROPSHOTS HERE ! add me up to view the friends. don`t leave comments, por favor [[; kthanks.

and by the way, please do visit my ading Alyssa`s dropshots, yeah ? she`s got a bunch of pictures of Ateh Irish at Seafood City last week. aawhs. i could`ve went too, but yeah. haha. Alyssa is Faye`s cousin, and she goes to Granger, and yeah. small werld, eh ? everyone here is connected to everyone ! haha. the hell ? and yeah, i call her "lil Iya Villania" cause duhr, she hella looks like her. haha. don`t wanna believe me ? kayy fine. CLICK HERE, and tell me whatcha think [[: add her on myspace, too. hah. she needs hollerations [[: hah.

BREAKING NEWS: my tita emma`s stupid yaya in the Philippines killed her dog. hah. tha`s fucked upp ! that girl is craaazy, though. if you`re mad at someone, don`t pour it all out to the dog. wtf was she thinking ? my tita got soo freaking mad, she kicked the stupid girl out of her house. haha. that`s a lesson, stupidass. she`s had that dog for like a looong time already. i think, for six years ? DAMNN ! even if i don`t like animals, i feel what she`s feeling. duhr, dogs have lives too. damn. doesn`t that girl have a heart ? ugh. ohwell. it already happened :| i miss PARANAQUE ! haha wtf ? kayy, nevermind.

i`m inlove with Channels 905-935, i sweeear. my anti-drug, man. especially channel 905. damn ! i looove the music. shiznit. i`m watching listening to it again [[: ooh, and yesterday, me and Dianne made some cheorography for the "Lip Gloss" song. ahaha. i looove it. it was playing just awhile ago, and i remembered the dance we did. haha. i miss Airband. ugh. here i go again. kthanks.

so, when do they show Your Song here ? does anybody knoee ? cause i don`t. hah. i knoee it airs tomorrow, in the Philippines. haha. wtf ? soo yeah ! lunch at RED LOBSTERS with the fambam tomorrow [[: i wanna go to the mall.

an oldie, but a goodie. hah. wtf ? YEAHH ! tha`s how my face looks like on Saturday afternoons, when i wake up in the middle of my sleep, and can`t go back to sleep anymore :| aawhs ! BYEE. FAGGOTS. hah. JAYYKAYY =P

i can`t sleep, and it`s already 1:45 AM. i still have school tomarrow, and ofcourse, i plan on going. i missed school fer 2 straight days now, and i`m hella gonna get in trouble if i don`t get my ass to school by tomarrow. the school doesn`t call because they didn`t knoee we changed our number. haha. and besides, it`s soo boring at home. KARMA has jess started, and it`s soo, annoying -__-

i`m jess watching Pimp My Ride, and yeah, i`m hoping to fall asleep, SOON [[:

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off to school [[: YAAYY not. can somebody give me the friggin directions fer the concert thingy on Sunday ? ugh. i`m soo pissed. they should have not changed it. i don`t even think that place exists. teehee. buht yeah, this is serious.

UHMM. NICO, HEY :) haha. go to sleep, buttcrack. stop giving comments on myspace :)) i`m tired reading. hehehe jaykayy ! meet you at the mall your ass ! :)) get my number my ass :)) jaykayy !

Nikki, thanks for telling me about that one song. now, i can`t stop listening to it. ugh :| i owe you one, ka-ba-ba-yan ? ahaha :)) yezz, we were both born in Bataan. haha :)) she was from, uhmm, i fergot. but yeah, super close to mine. haha. i made it my bg song [on myspace] already, btw. haha. listen to it if you like, and leave me comments :) I LOVE EM ! I SURE DO ! kthanksbyee.

it`s freaking 12AM. haha. MERRY BUNNY DAY TO ALL OF YOU ! church at 11AM @ Saint Mary`s. [meet me there] and lunch with the fambam and relatives. then, home, then homewerk time, then, i wanna sleep early, cause i`m excited for school the next day. haha. i know :|

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i`m back c[: had lunch with the fambam at Panda Palace, then home. Jan didn`t go trick or treating [why the hell did i type that up ? hahaha] EGG HUNTING, cause my cousins are all up in Eastlake. haha. aawe, i love it there c[: i wanna trasfer to Eastlake High, but it`s too late already. duhr, i`m graduating next year. haha :)) and i have to do a senior portfolio from those four years that i`ve been at Suhi. i can`t wait fer my senior year, though. Welcome Back Dance, Winter Formal, Luau Party, Sweetheart`s Ball, Talent Show, PROM, and so on and so forth c[: YAY ! limousine, babyyy. haha. i can`t wait to graduate either. i hella wanna go to UCLA [University of California, Los Angeles]. i jess wanna get outa here. haha. jaykayy, but i really wanna go there, though c[: CROSS FINGERS ! that`s like, my dream school ever since 9th grade. haha :)) it`s soo easy to get scholarships here, cause yeah, Bush is rich :)) so yeah. good luck to me. college life is fast approaching. i jess wanna graduate high school and sing our alma mater fer the last time already :)) i`ve been studying fer 11fucking years now. the hell. almost 12, after this year`s over. haha. YAY ! two more months, babyyy, and i`m on vacayy c[: SUMMER ! wait fer meee. Shamu, you too, kayy ? haha :))

NiGGER: a term that is racist, as long as the speaker of it is not black. Forbidden on most all of television and other forms of public entertainment, at times referenced to as the "n-word". However, "cracker", a term racist against whites, is a completely acceptable term used in any context of any national broadcast.

hey hey, i say "nigger" 92027464 times a day, but i ain`t no racist. haha :)) i love people. especially them "blacks". they just look kinna intimidating, but they`re the coolest people you`ll ever meet :)) I THINK ? haha. YEAAHH ! i lalalala love chicken, bitch c[: especially, uhm, BUFFALO WINGS WITH FLAMING HOT HOT HOT SAUCE. oh shizz. haha :)) we jess had em fer dinner last night :)) SO YEAH, i`m hunggrryyy. damn you.

Nixx and Faaaaaye need to stop procrastinating and get our asses off our chairs and do our hw`s. haha :)) we have the same problem. what happened to those 4 weeks ? uhh. we crammed, and this is what we get from it. LAST MINUTE, man ! i`m doing my Chem Notes later tonight [: thank god, it`s jess notes. Faye`s doing her Psychology hw which is due, tomorrow at first period. haha :)) damn. NICE, NICE ! why are the teachers soo freaking, uhm, lame ? they should understand that SPRING BREAK means, time to spend time with family & friends, time to have fun and kill time. NOT to do stoopid hw`s that don`t even do anything but confuse our minds. haha JAYKAYY. i jess haaate it. cause they give us like 92037847 hw`s all at once, even though we haven`t learned some of em. haha. YEAH ! talk about self study. gahh. but whatever. i still have to do it, anyways :)) why whin ? right ? haha. jess do it Nixx, jess do it. ARYT, i`ll get it over with, tonight. NO CHOICE ! haha.

so there`s this one guy, and he kinda has my heart. <3333 AAWE !

why is it that after we watch a certain movie, we always think that the guy character is hot, and we end up having a huge ass crush on them ? haha. gahdd, why is it ? earlier, they featured A Walk to Remember on TBS, and even though i`ve seen that movie lots of times already, i still got teary-eyed in some parts, and even cried on the scene where Landon stayed in the hospital the whole night and morning just to be with Jamie. aawe ! gahdd ! i lalalala love this movie to death. i just think Shane West is hott, and i want him to be mine. haha jaykayy ! i truly believe that he`s soo perfect for Mandy Moore. ugh :| i love them both. why can`t all guys in the world be just like Landon ? aawe. i want a guy who would take me a walk to remember, by the beach, and give me butterflies in the stomach, even if we`re not together. aawe ! where the hell`s that guy ? :| he takes forever to come.

found these scaps in one of my multiply albums again, which were taken way way way back, when i was just, a toddler. haha jaykayy ! t`was long time ago, but since i`ve seen the movie again, i can`t help but put them here !

"Love is like a wind. You can`t see it, but you can feel it".

aawe. fuckshit. i lalalala love you, Landon ! ugh :| Jamie should`ve not died. Landon deserves an everlasting happiness :(

but yeah. A WALK TO REMEMBER + THE NOTEBOOK = PRICELESS ! the two movies i can`t live without, and that i can watch over and over and over again. aawe. i`m such a hopeless romantic. but ohwell. haha. i`m going to marry Landon and Noah :)

THE BEST LINES EVER WRITTEN. these particular lines got me fucking crying. i am not freaking kidding. i really cried :(( actually, everytime Landon cries, i cry :(( he fucking got me. he really did.

Landon: Jamie... I love you.
Landon: Now would be the time to say something.
Jamie: I told you not to fall in love with me.

Landon: Will you do something for me, then?
Jamie: [smiles] Anything.
Landon: Will you marry me?

Landon: [voiceover] Jamie saved my life. She taught me everything. About life, hope and the long journey ahead. I'll always miss her. But our love is like the wind. I can't see it, but I can feel it.

"I`LL AWAYS REMEMBER......... IT WAS LATE AFTERNOON"... woaaaahh :((

WOAAAAAAAAAAAAH ! SHITTTTT :(( sorry. i can`t help it anymore ! I LOVE YOU, SHANE WEST ! i love you more than Johnny Depp now. sshh ! shoot. i lalalala love you, like fer`reals. please take me to two places at once :(( CALIFORNIA AND PHILIPPINES. haha. how`s that ? haha. and please find my star. it`s called....REESE`S BUTTER CUP. haha :)) and i want a monkey tattoo, on my shoulder too. and i want you to marry me, NOW ! :((

holyshit. it`s 2:44AM ! i must be outa my mind :| church at 11 then lunch with the fambam and relatives, then home, to do homewerk, then sleep early. YAY ! can`t go to babyyy Thea`s partyyy :( mom didn`t let me. ouchyyy ! it`s okayy. i wanna sleep early too :D as early as 6 PM :) hihi.

"four tres two uno.... Listen up ya`ll, Cuz this is it. The beat that I`m bangin` is de-li-cious"

hawmie ! that`s my song right there. haha. Fergalicious, babbyyy :)) Hip Hop is <3. yes yes yes :) i miss Hiphop ! fuccckk ! Mommy, sign me up already :)) yeahh, dancing has been my passion ever since, uhmm ? i was little. haha :)) my cousin does Hip Hop and Hula/Tahitian workshops at the same time, and she keeps on telling me to sign up for it, but it all depends to my mom ! ugh. she wanted me to drive already, but she wouldn`t even enroll me to a driving school. ugh :| like what am i supposed to do ? i can`t just take the test and tell them people that i know how to, already. wtf ? that`s lame. haha. so yeah. summer`s gonna be the bomb this year. it should be. if i don`t get my ass in dance, then i better be driving, already. teehee. like that`ll happen. yeah, jkeeding. whatever, my mom`s mind is.. uhm.. confuzzling. haha. but ugh :| i miss dancing :| hiphop is forever love. don`t chu just love J Lo`s show on MTV called "Dance Life" ? shit. i loved it. yeah, it was done already, but i watched every episode of it. haha. talk about hiphop ! skills, babbyyy !

i wish i could sing though :)) i mean, just like Fergie. haha :)) i love her now. :)) how could God forget to shower me with a talent like that ? haha :)) sing and dance, babbyyy, isn`t that sick ? but damn. idk :)) "How come everytime you come around, My London, London bridge, wanna go down like, London, London, London, wanna go down like, London, London, London, we goin’ down like…" hahaha, shit :)) watched "The Poseidon" earlier with Jan, for the second time, and mother kickers, the song at the ending was soo tight ! ahah :)) i even waited for the acknowledments to finish just to see what the title of the song was. haha. craaaazy ! Mom was like: "What are you watching on there"? and i`m just like... "I`m waiting for something". hahaha. okayy, i thought the song was sung by Kelly Clarkson because the voice really sounded like her voice, but to my surprise, when i finally saw it, t`was freaking "Fergie" singing :)) hahaha. what a cool timing. the title was "Won`t let you Fall". ugh, now i can`t stop listening to it :|

"Won't let you fall, Fall out of love, 'Cause together we'll be holding on, 'Cause all we have is us, Won't let you go, Go away again, Because life don't mean nothing at all, If I don't have your love."

i lalalala love this song now ! thanks a bunch Fergie ! and thanks to "Poseidon". haha. if it wasn`t for it, i wouldn`t be able to hear this song at all. and Thanks Jan, for helping me out look for it on the screen. ahaha.

Happy Birthday "Althea Jenelle Ruiz". i lalala love you, lollicup. haha :)) you`re four now. aawe ! i know you won`t be able to read this, but whatever. haha. i love you, taye-taye ! have fun at your easter/birthday party tomorrow at the park. ugh. i really want to go, but Ateh has to finish her hws first. haha. i am soo not a good example, so i hope you don`t grow up as a laaazy person like me. haha :)) i love you, ading :) i`ll see you, uhmm... sooon, kayy ? i lalalala love you. *smooches.

i miss my "PEE-PEE-GEE". aawe ! i`ll see you both on Monday ! yay ! i cannot wait anymore. haha :)) if there are two people who i missed the most during this long-ass-boring break, that would definetly be you two :) don`t chu just think i`m too excited ? damnit. watch, after a week, i`ll get back to saying "i wanna go on vacation now". haha :)) fer`reals. why is it like that ? haha. weird. but yeah, i`m ready to learn again. haha :)) i can`t find the books i borrowed from the library. shit. i owe them a lot now :))

my tall ass AZIAN ! just found it in one of my multiply albums when i was looking for some of Thea`s pictures. haha. i miss Sarah ! Filipino buddy ! hahah. i wish i had Filipino again. that class was the bombdiggity ! haha. Ginang Dumaran`s theee best :) i miss learning about the "Pambansang stuff". hahaha. fer`reals ! that was one thing we learned last year. like duhr, i think i learned that in 1st grade. haha :)) we even learned, uhm, tuldok, tandang pananong, and all those different punctuations. haha :)) soo fun ! btw, that picture was during our Filipino Festival thing where we hadta walk from Walmart to the park behind my house [Kimball Park]. haha :)) that day was really unforgettable because that was also the day when Teressa got her car into a terrible accident. super Thank God though because she wasn`t included in it. damn. that was aweful. but yeah. nevermind. i don`t wanna remember it anymore :|

the song is soo pretty. i`m still listening to it :)) trying to memorize the lyrics now :)) HAPPY EARLY EASTER, people ! be safe, por favor ? YAY ! God has finally come again. i lalalala love you God, with all my heart. Thank you so much for everything ! i know words are totally not enough to express how much we`re thankful for you, but damnit, i will never ever turn my back on you. i love you soo much ! take care of my family and the people i love. YOU`RE MY NUMBER ONE HERO, AND MY BOYFRIEND :)

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MEAN GIRLS is on on Channel 33 [TBS] right now. haha :)) HEY REGINA ! i love you. haha.

kayyz. uhm. i was gon` sacrifice myspace during the holy week, but i knew it wasn`t gonna last. haha :)) i did it last year, and i gave up on the 2nd day :)) Olive knows, because she was the one who dared me to do it. haha :)) unfortunately, i did it again on Christmas, NO MYSPACE for 7 days, but then again, i failed :| ugh ! sorry. that just proves, that i really can`t do it :)

kthanksbyeee. Have a Happy Easter Sunday, everyone :) eating out with the fambam, and relatives tomorrow :| i`m not going egg hunting, though :)) aawe. i wanna wanna wanna, but my mom`s gonna keep nagging on me until i do my hw. haha :)) Mom, it`s just Chemistry, okayy ? and it`s not a lot anyways. haha. but, she has the right to be mad though :| kayyz, Jan`s going egg hunting with the cousins tomorrow, but i have to get home early after we eat, to watch ASAP and do my hw. duhr :| TFC is lame. haha ! so basically, just uhm, church + lunch with the fambam tomorrow. i wanna go to lil Thea`s partyyy, but i just can`t ! i`m gonna cry tomorrow. haha :)) jaykayy ! i really wanna go, but my mom`s gonna kill me. okayy, okayy, `SALL MY FAULT ! but whatever, i can`t wait to go back to school :)) whata wear, whata wear ! ugh. soo stressing :|

we talked on the phone again, and chatted on AIM. aawe ! i love him. SIKE :))

"THE SHIT YOU HEARD ABOUT ME COULD BE AS FAKE AS THE BITCH WHO TOLD YOU"

- nice one Faaaaye ! very true :D i lalalala love you Faaaaye ! see you Monday :) keep it pimpin.

kayy. ugh :| i just came from my school website to look for my Chemistry hw, but i couldn `t find it. damnit :| i should`ve done this millions of years ago, i know, so stfu now :)) i was gon` do it yesterday, but freaking Jan made me watch HBO all day. haha :)) Monster In Law and Kingkong :)) duhr, i couldn`t say NO to those. haha :))

i`ll rant more, later. damnit, it`s my lil Thea`s birthday today. woaaaahh ! can you believe that ? her party`s gonna be held tomorrow at El Toyon park, but damn bitches, i wanna go, but i`ve to finish what i have to finish, first. ugh. i haaate this. kayyz, i need a oh-so-cute picture of that lil kid right now. haha :))

btw, that drawing that i had on my last post was made by YOURS TRULY :) pretty, huh ? ahaha.

i haven`t seen nor touched my ipod for more than 929274 years now. haha. seriously though, i don`t hella know where it went :| i`ll try to look for it when i get the chance. i mean, when i`m not that laaazy anymore :| sucks, cause i only remember it when i`m really really bored. aawe :| like right now, i want to put tons of new songs in it but i don`t hella know where it is, in the first place. haha :)) and so, i`m stuck using Jan`s mp3 player, and it`s so so, uhm, i don`t know :)) haha. i think it`s okayy, but the songs are so, not me :)) PANIC! AT THE DISCO, USHER, LIL JON, haha, you name it ! i want to hear some Kelly Clarkson, Jojo, Maroon 5, Tamia, Toya, 3rd storee songs right now :))

"i tried to move on but you`re not gone, cause in my heart you still live on, see now i know why i never love another for the rest of life, and now that you`re gone i`m holding on and deep in my heart i wanna move on... and now i know why i`ll never love another for the rest of my life."

okayy, that song`s officially stuck in my head again :| i`ve been listening to it since the moment i came out of the shower, and until now, i still can`t seem to stop listening to it :| ugh. why is it soo hard to move on ? life is soo craaazyyy ! oh well, a couple more playbacks, and i`ll be fine :) Toya`s voice is totally incomparable. i don`t know, but i find her voice super unique and unusual. i love it. i wish i just had it :)) okayy, just pretend you`re singing this song with me, and let`s bawl til we drop.

since i watched Mean Girls and White Chicks last night, later, i`m going to watch the second batch which are: "Princess Diaries 1&2" and "The Devil Wears Prada". haha :)) stfu, Anne Hathaway is love. don`t chu just think her looks is, uhm, oh so gorgeous ? hahaha. then, after those two, i plan to stay up as late as i could, to watch some Rachel Mcadams` dvds, ofcourse. duh ! ofcouse, she must always be on my list :) haha. i`m thinking of watching The Notebook or The Family Stone. haha. hmm. i`ll watch The Family Stone first. haha. YAY CLAIRE ! i miss Ryan Gosling, though ! and how can i forget about my one and only Willy Wonka ! hahaha. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, bebeh :) i love you, Johnny Depp :) greetings from your one and only wifey :) that`s mee, bitches ! haha. can`t fucking wait for "Pirate`s Of the Caribbean: At World`s End". omfg. ugh :| i wanna see it now, right at this second. haha :)) and fyi, July 13th :) Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix. ahahaha :)) foshizzle mah nizzle. i`m such a movie buff :)) ugh. i just lalalala love Rachel McAdams, Johnny Depp, Ryan Gosling, Anne Hathaway and uhh, Kirsten Dunst, soo effing much :) yeeaboi, that`s in order :)

The Hills is on ! watch it, people :) don`t chu just love Whitney like i do ? hahaha. i`m gonna copy her voice, watch. haha :)) i already tried, and i sounded so funny, but i loved it, and i`ll forever love her voice ! fer reals though, i envy her voice ! woaaaaahh ! i miss The Hills already :| it was on almost the whole afternoon today and didn`t miss any episode of it :| i sweeear to God, that show totally changed the way i feel towards life. ugh :| i can`t wait til i turn 21. haha :)) i`ll move to West Hollywood and be friends with Lauren and Whitney and them :)) haha. stfu, thank you very much ! Life is soo freaking beautiful :| so summer, please hurry up and come already. haha.

watch this video, people :) totally worth watching :) love it, love it, love it ! the song makes me sad though, and the clips, omfg, they`re making me cry again :| i totally haaaate it when the shows i love have to end :| it feels like, my world`s going to end as well. ugh. don`t chu feel that, too ? lame, huh ? but what can we do, right ? SUE THEM DIRECTORS ? haha. fucck ! kayy, watch it, watch it !i need some damn kleenex right now :((

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"And this is my beautiful life, only thing`s certain is everything changes. The lows and the highs, and all those goodbyes as hard as it gets I know it's still amazing, to be alive, It`s a beautiful life."

woaaaah ! i lalalala love this song now !! aawe, i couldn`t belive Lindsay Lohan could make such a good song like this !! aawe. the song totally fits the video up there. aawe :(

and that`s my beautiful life :)

okayy ! today`s such a craaazy and hyper day ! ahaha. i woke up this morning afternoon without mommy anywhere around the house, so i asked Jan and he said that mom`s out with her friends. ahaha NICE ! so like, me and Jan are here, doing absolutely nothing, so we decided to fool around and record ourselves using the damn mic. haha :)) craaaaazy ! watched White Chicks and Mean Girls last night, and because i love love love those movies to death, i even had my brother memorize some of my favorite lines from both of em. hahaha.

totally bonding time with my lil brother. hahaha. we were soo freaking loud like omfg. haha. thank god his girlfriend doesn`t call as much anymore :| ugh. haha. jaykayy ! well, yeah. i just can`t wait to go to school on Monday ! yayness ! 4 more freaking long days ! hahaha. i can do this. YES I CAN !

EMBARASSING !! i swear. haha. you should go watch it, i mean, listen to it. haha. way better if only we had a webcam though. haha. we sounded soo retarded, and mother fucccker, i`ve gone craazy ! ahaha. thanks to Jan. haha. jaykayy :))


Nixx, immitating Gretchen`s voice: Why should Caesar get to stomp around like a giant, while the rest of us try not to get smushed under his big feet ? What's so great about Caesar? Hm? Brutus is just as cute as Caesar. Brutus is just as smart as Caesar. People totally like Brutus just as much as they like Caesar. And when did it become okay for one person to be the boss of everybody, huh ? Because that`s not what Rome is about. We should totally just stab Caesar !

Nixx: I gave him everything! I was half a virgin when I met him.
Jan: Do you wanna do something fun? Wanna go to taco bell ?
Nixx: I can't go to taco bell, I`m on an all-carb diet. GOD Karen you`re so stupid !

ahahaha. craaaazy, eh ? :)) i killed the song after :)) my brother sings good, fyi :) kayy, here`s next in line.


Nixx: Your mother shops at Saks.
Nixx: What?
Jan: Oh my God. You want to talk about mothers ? You wanna talk about mothers ! It`s mother time, okay ! Your mother`s so dumb she went to Dr Dre for a Pap smear ! "Something`s wrong, Dr Dre ! My coochie`s doing a beatbox !"
Nixx: Well yea? Your mother`s so stupid she exercises when she could just get like, liposuction or something !
Jan: Your mother`s so old that her breast milk is powdered. You breast-feed like this.
Nixx: Your mother is so, like... She`s so...
Nixx: Megan you go!
Nixx: Your mother is so stupid that she goes to Barney`s Rooftop Deck Restaurant for lunch and orders a niçoise salad and calls it a 'ni-coise' salad. 'Ni-coise' salad, right ?

ahahaha :)) hella craaaazy, i tell you. sorry for my annoying voice :)) my mommy left us here with nothing to do, so we ended up fooling around and, yeah :)) i`m soo hunggrry ! ahaha. i found some Filipino Chips in the kitchen cabinet and i`m about to eat them. haha. they`re the sour chips thing that`s called "Crackling`s" ? yeaah. haha :)

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holyshit. Bernie just came here. fucking bitch. i just said i hate surprises. haha. she called me on my phone and fucking asked me to open the main door. ahah :)) fuckshit. when i opened it, she was standing on the stairs with Carmina. haha. fucking bitches. so yeah. we just talked and caught up with some things :)) they stole food in my fridge while i lurked through Bernie`s phone. haha. humm, porno ! ahaha jaykayy ! i missed that bitch. haha. then we stayed in my room and wasted some lotion :)) haha. then, people kept on calling. ugh. haha :)) then went on the computer to check some hot people`s myspace. hahaha. then.. woaahh ! Oliver came. ugh :| i missed that hoe. haha :)) but then they had to leave already, cause their ride was already outside waiting for them. haha. FUCKERS ! let`s hang out soon !

thanks for the visit, you fuckers. please, next time, call me before you come, kayy ? ahaha. Bernie, you pornstar ! ahaha. stop touching me :)) haha. i lalalala love you Bernie :)

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mommy and her friends just came here to drop some stuff off, then they left again for another appointment thingymajigg. ugh :| i just ate a pack of kettle corn but i`m still hungry. haha. i`m trying to remember my fucking id in dropshots cause all of our old videos are stored in there. ugh :| what the hell is that freaking id ? haha :)) alrighty, i think i`mmanuh shower now :) oh btw, my phone was on silent since last night so like when i looked at it again earlier, i hella had 46 miscalls from people. haha. some were even private. fuckshit. i told you guys not to call me if you`re on private, cause i don`t freaking answer them. yeahh. i was supposed to do my hws today, but as usual, i got laaazy. haha. i`ll do em tomorrow night instead :) i`m just doing the ones in Chemistry anyways :) i don`t think i`m still doing the US. History one. haha. i haaate doing timelines. ugh :| and i can`t draw either, so like, nevermind :) i just wanna go to school now. haha :))

WHOSE BESTFRIEND IS COOLER THAN MINE ? ahaha :))


"IRIS DOROTHY SANTOS"

ahaha yeah ! a lot of people, i mean, everyone says she`s a "baby face", but fuckk ya`ll, it`s only cause she`s short. haha. i`m jaykayy :) she`s 16, people, but she absolutely doesn`t act her age. haha :)) she knows a lot about this game called life. omfg ! that`s hella unusual and strange, but i love her anyway. haha :)) hello Iris, just in case you`re reading this lil piece of shit, which i know you aren`t, because you`re a laaazy ass, haha, i just want you to know that....... i am going to kill you and every single person in your family if you leave me next year and move to Morse. woooooaahh ! dooooooooon`t move, jiggah ! if i have to video myself and put it in our school`s tv for everyone to see, i would, just for you to stay. wooooaaahh ! i`m hella gon` die without you. haha. but yes duuuuude, i`m not kidding. pleeeease don`t leave.. haha :)) i know you won`t.. cause you don`t just want to see your family dead one day :) ahahaha. jaykayy.

Iris: i love you forever, bitch.

Nixx: i love you times forever and a day, slut.

woaaaaah ! i`ll miss that ! i lalalala love you, Iris :) even if you always say that i`m MEAN ! ahaha. like today, sorry if i kind of yelled at you on the phone. hahaha. i was just uhm, paranoid this morning c[: i love you.

ahahahaahaha :)) can i just laugh ? ahaha. omg. i found a lot of old pics of me back in 7th grade and i hella looked like shit. haha. i miss being skinny. hihi. jaykayy ! anyways, here`s my two favorite ones c[: i`m not posting the rest, cause they`re just likeeeee, suuuper, uhm, wicked. haha.


eww. haha :)) lil devil :)) kthanksbyee c[:

FINE !! LET`S ASSUME YOU ARE ALWAYS RIGHT !!

bitch.

anywayss, jess listen tuh myy bg song fer now !! it`s again, myy ading, Justin :) add him up on myspace tuh hear tha rest of his songs !! yahdigg ? !!

watching Memoirs of a Geisha wit Jan right now. lalalala love this movie !

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might watch a movie with Karl and Iris tuhday, buht i`m fucking laaazy tuh go out. i think it`s not fair too. cause ii didn`t go tuh Flora`s beach partyy tuhday, and turns out that i`m going out wit other hawmies. thatt kinduh sucks, so jess tuh be fair, ii ain`t goin out. haha :)) i`m seriously fucking laaazy. ii don`t know why ! ugh :| ii wannuh leave, buht then ii don`t want tuh. wtf ? haha. ii jess wannuh watch diff`rent movies wit my brother todayy, yadamean ?. haha :)) we jess finished watching Memoirs of a Geisha awhile ago, and layturr on, we`re off tuh watch... White Chicks. haha. yeah, jess some of our old ass favorite movies. haha :)) we got quite a lot tuh choose from actually, but i`m in tha mood tuh watch some comedy shit right now :)) hahaha. WHAT-EVURR !

guess who`s coming tuh the States on Monday ?

wannuh kick it ? hit me upp on myspace, jigga c[; some guy`s pissing me off on there. he be asking where i live and all that shit, when i jess barely met him. wtf ? and now, he`s askingg ferr myy numberr !! haha. funny !! nah thanks c[; save yerr shit fer yer momma, jiggah c[;

haha :)) hey guys ! got tired with the previous layout, sorry c[: it didn`t even last for two days. haha :)) i`m not yet satisfied with this layout that i have on right now, but whatever, i`m too laaaazy to find a good one anymore :| i`ve been looking for a nice one for like ever :| ugh :| anypoops, i keep losing my connection. damnit :| imeem`s possessed :))

taaaake a showeeeer, man ! YES, YOU ! damnit, you smell like shit. haha :)) sorry, i`m just craaazy :) i don`t know why i`m soo hyper today, but i think it`s because of the "dove" chocolate that i`ve been eating since yesterday ! ahaha :)) blaaaame my mom. i think she bought the whole Walmart already. haha :))

US HISTORY EXTRA CREDIT HOMEWORK
omg, i have no freaking idea :)) i`m gonna start doing my hw`s on Wednesday. haha. what a good example c[:

also, starting tonight, i promised myself that i have to already be asleep by 10 PM :) i need to start sleeping early again, since i`m going back to school in like 6 days :) haha.

someone keeps bothering me on AIM. haha :)) just name your "Panda" whatever name you like. haha :)) i said something, but you said you want it with "Lil" on it. ugh :| so why ask me ? haha. jaykay ! i`m being shallow again :|

kthanksbyeee !

ohmygahdd ! i miss school soo much :| i can`t wait til Monday. woaahh ! i know school may sometimes be boring, but deep inside, we are the ones who make it "fun". the people, the friends, just everyone :) i miss everyone like hell. ugh :| i wanna go back to school now. i`m never gonna ditch Intersession ever again :)) haha i mean, next time, i am going to sign up for it :) i haaate being bored. i really miss everyone :| i don`t want the seniors to graduaaaaate. woaaahh ! i really am gonna cry buckets and buckets :| that`s fer sure :| i`m gonna cry more than i did last year. i`m gonna miss all the seniors. SUHI is never the same without them ! next year, we`re gonna be the ones who`ll graduate, but it`s still different. i don`t wanna be a senior. haha :)) i wanna leave SUHI already and go to college, but i am going to miss high school life :| next school year`s gonna be my 4th year in that school and i just can`t believe it. when i entered that school in 9th grade, i was what ? 14 ? damn. i was soo young, and now that i`m 3 years older, i feel like i`ve learned a lot. i really did grow up, but i still miss Middle School. haha :)) 7th and 8th grade. aawe :| memories, memories. ugh :| i haaate this feeling :| i love my friends, and i just can`t accept the fact that half of em are going to graduate this June. holyshit. i guess i needuh needuh get my kleenex ready by June 14 :| woaaahhh ! *sniff sniff.

anyways :| i`m bored. haha. random ! i miss my three favorite girls :| i was looking through my multiply just awhile ago and found a few pics of/with them. aawe, i miss these gorgeous girls :|

i miss you, i miss you, i miss you ! my real partner in crime, food buddy, hook-up bitch, twin mean girl, and all those other shit we always come up with. ahaha. i lalalala love you, Christine Ruiz :) see you Monday ! YAY ! don`t graaaduate yet :| i`m going to die. haha. i love you, anyway :) i`m soo happy for you, about.... yeah :) you deserve to be happy :)

lalalala love you :) you owe me some Mc`donalds :) haha. Snack wrap and Hot Fudge will do :) haha. hook me up, bitch :) please convince my mom to let me work. haha !

my twiiiiiiiiin, Alyssa :) i lalalala love you, babe :)

my favorite girls ! [Christine, Alyssa, Althea] aawe. i love you girls soo much. ugh :| visit me sometime ! i`m always the one who makes the visit. haha :)) i lalalala love you :) Soak City again, in summer ? hahahaha. good times, good times :) love you, beautifuls.

kayy :) i`m just listening to Justin`s songs on my playlist :) haha. it`s my friend who sings and records really really good songs :) i must tell you more about him later :) and uhh, i`ll make you listen to his songs too. haha. i swear to god, you`ll fall in love with em. haha. remind me, kayy ?

Flora`s picnic and beach partyyy at La Jolla Beach on Wednesday. i`m still thinking if i`m going, though :) most probably not, cause Raymond and Joone are gonna be there fer sure :| i don`t know. ugh.

ooh, and it seems like everyone`s getting obsessed with the song that i have in here. ahaha :)) people have been commenting/messaging me on myspace telling me that they`re gonna use the same song. haha. i know, right ? it`s soo prettyful :|

we` re going to watch Passion of the Christ later tonight because my mom wants to, since it`s Holy Monday ! ahaha. she`s weird, but i wanna watch it, anyway :)

Uncle Tony, Auntie Didith, and Cousin Meg are in the Philippines right now :) they left San Diego on the 31st and will be staying in San Juan, Manila the whole April. aawe. i talked to Auntie Didith on myspace earlier and she said that they`ll be in Boracay for 5 days. eww ! haha. not fair :)) jaykayy. she asked me what kind of "pasalubong" i want, but i don`t know what i want. haha :)) i told her to just buy me whatever. haha :)) Tita Erly and Granpa will be going there on May 5th. yuhps, they already bought their tickets :| they`re taking China Airlines, man. haha. i`m not going home this year, but i don`t really care. haha. we`re going next year: Me, mommy, and Jan to celebrate my 18th birthday and my graduation, 3 months after i turn 18. haha :))

i lalalala love the Philippines. that`s where i was born, duuude. haha. so, gotta love it :) always have, always will :) i miss and love my cousins there. my cousin "Mac" graduated high school last March 29th and i just wanna say "Congratulations" to him and the rest of the graduates :) i don`t know how high school feels like, over there, but i`m sure, it`s as fun as the one here :) haha. kayy, gotta bounce :)

The Hills season finale, tonight at 10 :( i think i`mma nuhh cry :|

ugh :| this song`s stuck in my head :| i can`t seem to stop listening to it :| shit. stop it.

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine, it just ain’t true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I’ll wait for you

this is wrong. totally wrong :| it`s supposed to be vice versa :| i haaaate you soo much for making me feel this way. stupid, stupid, stupid bastard :| haha, jaykayy :)

i wanna make a new layout for Ateh Irish`s site but my powers [according to Ateh Reg] is not at all working right now :| ugh, i`m just so sick of it. rawr. you know me ! at first i compliment it like it`s the best thing i`ve done in my life, but after a few weeks, ugh :| i haaate myself. haha :)) jaykayy. i`ll try to make one later, or tomorrow, or, some other day. hopefully before the world ends :)

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10

one two three four five six seven eight nine ten

blah blah blah blah blah

with love, 1723asdfaafe

yada yada yada

ugh :| i`m sooo sleepy :| but i can`t sleep yet cause i`m still waiting for the video that Carllah`s sending me to finish uploading :| i can`t miss that :| i didn`t sleep last night until 4 AM. woaaahh. can you just imagine how my eyes look like now ? my eyes are getting watery already :| but once i close em, that`s it :|

yada yada yada ! school`s back in just a matter of week ! how gayy !

okayy, i`ll try to sleep now. if i can.

oh wait. did i tell you already ? haha :)) i just find it soo funny cause the other day, i asked Ateh Rarrs to wake up by calling me on my phone because my alarm clock is being such an ass and it won`t alarm. haha :)) so there, the other day, i asked her to wake me up at 4 AM, and guess what ? she really did, but i wouldn`t get up anyways, because i was still soo sleepy, so i put my phone on silent, and when i woke up the next day, i looked at my phone, and there, i had 84 miscalls from her :)) hahaha. shit. it was soo funny, i was really cracking up :))

yesterday, i asked her again to wake me up, but as usual, i didn`t get up :)) haha. thank god, i only had 15 miscalls from her this time. haha :)) she`s like my living alarm clock :)) i love it. i keep on reminding her to wake me up, but i don`t even get up :)) ohwell. you know how it is :)

okayy, i really wanna sleep now :|