WHERE ARE YOU ?

"In love, a heart can never be stolen... it goes where it wants to."
i feel so emotional today. i`ve been listening to a lot of sentimental songs over and over. can someone tap me on the back and ask me what`s up with me ? i`m soo aroused about what has been happening lately. why can`t i accept the fact that people come and go ? why can`t i accept the fact that we all don`t know what`s happening tomorrow ? why can`t i accept the fact that one of my bestfriends is already GONE ? why ? why ?

last night, i was having a very hard time sleeping because i had a lot of things in mind. i don `t know how to explain it all but it`s bugging me soo much. i hate being far away with my loved ones. i wish i know what`s happening with them every single second. i wish i can just be with them anytime i want. why does life need to be unfair ? why does it need to be unfair to me atleast ? sometimes i just want to give up, but everytime i try to, hope whispers, one more try. i hate that.

i guess today`s not the right time for me to blurb about things that happened. i am soo confused. i wanna talk to God and ask him why he has to get all the ones i love ? sometimes i get mad at him, but everytime i try to get mad at him, i ask myself "do i have the right to" ? call me crazy, but he is sometimes soo unfair ='(

oh god, please bring back the old me. i miss my old self soo much.. please tell me i can forget all these things easily. please tell me i can easily move on.

my uncle from the Philippines called awhile ago but he wouldn`t tell me exactly what happened to Mape. i guess he jus didn`t want me to cry more. *sigh* i wanna call my friends in the Philippines. i need a phone card -_-