uhm. hi people [: i haven`t blogged normally for days. haha. school is soo hectic, and homeworks from different classes keep piling up each and everyday! err. i hate school. yesterday, i went with Iris after school to Jack in The Box and ate. haha! stayed there until 5, i guess. we talked about tons of stuff, mainly about how stupid guys are for asking girls out, and when we happen to deny them, they get all mad and shit. hahaha. it was funny! we were like laughing the whole entire time and some students from our school that were in there kept looking at us, thinking we might be crazy. hahaha! Thanks for coming with me, Iris [: and for sharing some of your secrets with me. i promise i won`t tell anyone [: hahaha. i know how to keep promises! thanks for the convo too. it was really fun [: GUYS SUCK DICKS! haha jaykay.

TRICK OR TREEEEAT!

Happy Halloween everyone [: i`m just home because i`m too lazy to go trick or treating.. this is the effect of being obsessed with PDA. damnit. my brother was like "wow, it`s a miracle you`re not going because you always look forward to going trick or treating each year".. gahd damnit, what`s up with me this time? hahaha. my brother and my tita just left, with my other tita and my cousin to go trick or treating up in Mira Mesa. whew! they got some nice houses over there, so i`m pretty sure they`ll get lots of goodies. hahaha. we went trick or treating there two years ago, then last year, we were at Woodman with my barkada [: it was so so fun! haha. i got a backpack of hella candies. yupp! and to think that we didn`t even wear a costume, we still got tons of 'em.. hahaha! i miss those times... this year`s hella boring. well, ever since the seniors graduated, everything got boring! i`ll post pictures soon. we took pictures before they left, so i`ll be uploading them later on [; whew! finally. haha.

things between me and Hannah are okay now. everything`s clear now and i`m happy that we are now talking again [: it all happened last Sunday when i commented her on myspace saying everything i felt about our situation and stuff. then she told me her side too and we got to clear things out. then yesterday, out of nowhere, she came out behind me and tight me like there`s no tomorrow. haha! i was soo happy, so ofcourse, i hugged her back.. then yeahh! [: i missed her soo much. damnit, 3 months of not talking and ignoring each other? wow! i love you Han.. and i missed you soo much... haha, i made her cry yesterday!! [:

uhm. today after school. i walked home with Teressa and Iris. just felt like it since Iris wanted to walk. haha. then at 21st street, i saw DJ coming so i asked him to walk with me since Teressa and Iris were soon be leaving. hahaha. we both stopped by Walmart first to buy a "Pantene Leave-On Treatment" for my hair. then bought chocolates. MY TREAT! hahaha. i saw my auntie there.. whew! i wonder what she was thinking that time. hahaha!! then we went home.. [: thanks for walking me home DJ [:

Laditrick: i love your hair. it's soo straight and smooth.
Yee: i know! i love your hair too.
Me: what the hell? i don't like my hair. [i was kidding]
Laditrick & Yee: so, uhmm. wanna switch hairs? =))
Me: haha. NO THANKS!

freaking' hilariouuuuus.

i didn`t get to blog yesterday because i was too busy watching PDA in 24/7 live stream. haha lame, yeah? uhmm. i`m too lazy to update right now so i`ll just save all my detailed blurbs for tomorrow. haha. school sucks! 1-7 tomorrow. ewww! i gotta go. PDA`s coming up! [:

"Its amazing how you think everything is perfect, and nothing can go wrong, but with ONE blink of an eye e v e r y t h i n g changes."
i didn`t go to school today : i still have a freaking' hang-over from yesterday. my body is so sore and i feel superdy duper exhausted. the whole training thing made my body sore. basketball was okay, but the physical training thing is the messed up part. doing push-ups and sit-ups and such aren`t my thing. when i woke up this morning, i was having a hard time getting up. my arms and legs and my stomach weren`t cooperating well, and up until now, they still aren`t. my mom woke me up and asked me if i`m going to school and i made an excuse not to. Thank God she understands where i`m coming from. i went to sleep again and woke up at around 930ish. then i hit the shower right away and took a long hot one. my stomach is the worst part that hurts the most. right now, i feel sleepy again, but yet, i don`t wanna go to sleep. i should be at school right now, eating lunch and talking, but i`m not. i hope i`ll be able to catch up on things right away.

last night was totally unexplainable. i was chatting with Matt and he started opening up to me and stuff. i felt so stupid because i didn`t exactly have an idea what to tell him. gahdd. okayy! here`s what happened: i thought it was easier if i would just show you guys the exact things he said, but i realized that AIM doesn`t have that ability to save message archieves so i guess, i`ll just have to tell you literally what happened. the beginning part of our long conversation went well. we were just talking about random things until it came to the point when he asked me if i got the letter he asked his friend to give to me. seriously, i didn`t know what he was talking about because first of all, i never got a letter from anybody yesterday and i don`t know any "Virgil" at school. he said he gave it to him and that Virgil guy knows me. so whatever, i didn`t get it. then.. he started saying these nice things to me that made me super duper illogical and confused. at first i thought he was just giving me compliments and such, but when he asked me if we could walk together today after school, i was all like: "What`s your point"? then he said lots of other stuff a normal guy friend would not really say. then i don`t know how the hell it happened that all of a sudden "he wanted to get my number and even wanted to pick me up at my house since he knows where i live".. whew! now i guess you get what i`m trying to say, right? a normal conversation suddenly turned into a serious one. i didn`t know what to say to him at all after all he said to me. i think i refused to everything he said he`s gonna do for me, but i didn`t mean all those things. it`s not that i`m not into him, but there are really certain things that are going through my head. first of all, i`m a perfectionist and i know what i want. i guess you think i`m an idiot because nobody`s perfect in the first place so how could i find a guy who has all the perfect qualities and such. i guess i just don`t wanna be in a relationship right now. it`s not like i`m not into him as what he said, but, i don`t have that longing feeling for him. you know what i mean? it`s like, i don`t care whether i see him or not. he`s special, i guess but only as a friend. i told him he could be my bestfriend but i guess he wanted a "more than that" relationship with me. i don`t like it when guys push themselves to girls to the point that they`re going to make you feel bad for yourself because you end up dumping them and stuff. i didn`t dump him first of all, well, not in my perspective, but he thinks that i`m not really into him and i don`t even wanna talk to him and all those stuff. gahdd guys, quit being immature. haha! i guess i just don`t really wanna be in a relationship right now. "cannot be named" has also done the same thing but nothing happened between the two of us as well. i know what i want, that`s what`s up. Matt said he`s gonna wait for me. WTF? i got mad, well, brainsick i should say, so i cut our conversation and told him i`ve gotta go. i don`t want him to wait for me, that`s all, because i know nothing will ever happen between us. : now i feel really really bad. am i really that mean? i feel awful : i know i`m a lousy one, but what can i do? this is me.. this is how i was brought up.

- will continue later... listen to my background song.. "Say Goodbye" by Chris Brown.. err. freaking' LSS. haha.

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my 12 year old brother opened up to me last night and told me that he has a girlfriend already. aawe! i was soo happy while listening to him because i`m glad he knows he can trust me. his girlfriend`s name is "Erika", and heck, she is hecka pretty. haha yeah, brother showed me her picture on myspace! hahaha. he said that they have been officially together since October 16. haha. aawe! what is this? puppy love? haha! my brother is inlove. Erika should talk to my brother though because some girl is hitting up on him right now. haha! "that" girl keeps calling my house every single effing day. hahaha! oh yeah, my mom knew about this thing already. she didn`t get mad nor anything. koz DUH! he`s a guy! but when it comes to me.. pshh! "Jaja, i have to meet the guy that`s courting you".. like wth?

btw.. i ordered a few "makeup" in AVON! thanks mom. i really need it. haha. i`m running out of lots of things i usually use for school. i badly need a concealer. my eyebags keep on getting bigger each and every day. haha! my mom was like "i guess you really need it". hahaha. thanks mom, for the encouragement. okay mom, let`s go to Walmart tomorrow and buy me a lithium coin for my camera. hehe. i miss it soo much. i took lots of pictures earlier using our video cam but for some reason, i couldn`t upload 'em so i just gave up. i might just post 'em up tomorrow if i get 'em uploaded by then. my hair`s curly. haha! damnit, i miss being VAIN :| my ipod`s useless. haha. i don`t even use it anymore. it`s been in my room for like a week now and i still haven`t used it since then. hahaha! i shall put new songs in it tomorrow for i have lots of new nice songs to put [:

"Side by side or miles apart, dear friends are always close to the heart"

this week went by so fast. i can`t believe tomorrow`s Friday, AGAIN. i miss going out. i mean, going to places like Starbucks with friends and staying there until 10 in the evening. i miss going to any of my friends' house after school and chill there until i wanna go home. i miss eating out with my friends every after school when we`re too lazy to stay at someone`s house. i miss my friends oh soo much! and yes, i mean my old beloved friends. everything changed in a quick snap. it`s as if we never knew each other anymore. it hurts me much that when i see some of 'em walking in the hallway at school, we can`t even atleast say "hi" to each other. those simple things make me sad because i`ve never thought in my whole life that this is gonna happen to us. i miss the old times. i thought we were going to support each other in everything, but how come it seems like all of us just gave up?

the song "Say Goodbye" by Chris Brown = Last Song Syndrome. when i started playing it before typing things up, i knew this blog is going to be a pensive one. don`t chu just hate it when you listen to a song, and then suddenly, your mood swings because you start relating to it? *sigh*, i hope this feeling that i have right now is just temporary. as much as i possibly can, i try not to think of some things that make me sad because when i start thinking about them, they just get stuck in my head and eventually leads me to unhappines and non-stop confusion! life really is unfair. always stick to mind that solitariness always comes after happiness. YES Jaja, that means, you gotta stop thinking too much.

LET'S START FRESH

"I'm feeling a little off today - - wanna turn me on?"

hey guys [; i`m back with a normal layout again. yeaahh! everybody seems to be using this kind of layout so might as well make one. hahaha. i got this idea from here, here, and here. Thanks soo much! haha. anyway, my blog still looks quite sloppy so i`ll try to fix it as fast as i can. well, i just came home from school [: it was soo freaking' cold in the morning. gadd, i was freezing the whole effing time. we got a new set of uniform for ROTC! weeeh! i`d say i like this new uniform better than the one that we usually wear. haha! eww, i saw the three little bitches today! yuuuck :|

so like, everyone`s against Irish`s nomination thing. hahaha! the judges should realize that what they did was bullshit. Teacher Moi was soo upset because when he talked to Irish, he said that the teachers were all freaking' out when they heard the judges' decision. they really thought she didn`t deserve to be nominated. SO DID I. haha. Go Irish! we`re here for you always! i know, we know you can do it. kick Kuh Ledesma`s ass and the two other judges' asses when you see their effing faces. haha! weeeeeeh! can`t wait for Saturday, dammit.

the song called "You Move Me" that Irish sang two weeks ago got stuck in my head already! haha gadd, that song is totally pimpin. shizzz, my tita is already soo sick of hearing me sing that song 96575268 times a day. hahaha. shizzz, i have Chem tomorrow. OH NOO! am i in trouble for not turning in the lab? f*ck. Mrs. Rymer is soo freaking' scurrry.

this layout is best viewed in Mozilla Firefox. other than that, it`s gonna look all crappy and shit [: so if you don`t have the program installed in your computer yet, click HERE. it`s free and it`s safe [: i guarantee you. it is the best internet program you`ll ever find online.

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i took a nap at around 5ish. set my alarm clock at 7. didn`t hear it alarmed. noone bothered to wake me up. shizz. didn`t get to shower. didn`t get to watch PDA on tv. i only watched it on abs cbn now. dammit. woke up 10 minutes before 10. shizz. now watching 24/7. haha. currently chatting with Ate Paula [: she`s funny! that Viet. guy! haha. [:

SO SICK.

I`M TIRED OF THIS LAYOUT so i`ll be changing it tomorrow!

"I suppose it is much more comfortable to be mad and know it, than to be sane and have one's doubts" - G. B. Burgin

i am so angry and mad and disappointed and delirious and distracted for Irish being nominated for this week`s expulsion. what the f*ck? she totally doesn`t deserved to be under probation. a lot of people agreed that her performance last night was greeat and i can`t see any reason why those f*cking judges nominated her and told her all their f*cking comments about her performance. gadd damn, everyone in PEX and everywhere else are soo mad right now because who would`ve thought that the person that we all thought that was going to be this week`s Star Scholar would actually be one of the nominees for next week`s expulsion? pakingshet! even if you say that Irish is my favorite, that doesn`t solve a thing. her performance was well done and i really thought she was going to be the starscholar. if you watched it, i`m sure you`re disappointed with the results too. f*ck that! don`t ever get those stupid judges ever again. they`re f*cking stupid. what were they doing the whole time when Irish was performing? did they take a pee pee break when she was singing? or that f*cking Kuh Ledesma is just insecure of Irish because she knows that Irish is a threat to her because she sings well and she can belt. they`re soo f*cking stupid. even Headmaster could not believe that Irish was nominated because he really thought she did very well. he just couldn`t do anything about it because as what he said, they have to respect the judge`s decisions too. pakingshet! the scholars are soo freakin' mad at the judges right now because what they did was really lame and dumb! gadd damn! i am sooo mad right now! all these weeks, her grade was always line of 9, and now.. PAKINGSHET! they gave her a f*cking 7.3 DIE B*TCHES DIE.

you can do it Irish! PROVE ALL OF THEM F*CKING JUDGES WRONG! we will support you in any way we can.. we`re not going to let you down. Go Irish!



Irish, Mich and Joan crying in the dance room.. this is really unfair man...



The nominees get special messages from their loved ones. Irish`s mom made me f*cking bawl.. as in i was crying to my lungs!!

"All truths are easy to understand once they are discovered; the point is to discover them" - Galileo Galilei

two days of not having DSL is totally self-destruction. swear to God, if i never got it back today, i would`ve most probably killed myself already. *sigh*, please don`t take my DSL away from me anymore. so yeah. here`s what happened: yesterday was really really lame. i was in a very bad mood for not having my DSL, so i called AT&T and asked them what was up with it. unfortunately, the person i was talking to on the phone didn`t wanna tell me why they cut my DSL off and they even demanded that they wanted to talk to my mom. since my mom was at work during that time, she still didn`t get to talk to that freakin' girl on the phone.. err! i hated her. so this morning, i got in a huge fight with my mom AGAIN! pshh, what`s new ? so like yeah. when both of us were okay already, i called AT&T again and passed the phone to her so that she could talk to that annoying lady again. haha. thank God it was a different person now. then when my mom hung up the phone, she said that the lady told her that my DSL will be back within 2-4 hours because unfortunately, they received our payment for this month a lil late so they had to cut it off. pssh, how lame is that? but oh well. i`m soo happy now that my DSL is back again. haha. if it happens again, i`m gonna die for sure. haha. i can`t live without internet man. i hate using that freakin' Dial up thing. it`s too freakin' slow. but yeah! i`m soo happy. can`t you feel it? hahaha.

okayy! so yesterday was a shortened day! we got off at 1:10PM and i made them aya to eat at the Vietnamese Noodle House. haha! Thanks to Ate Agnes for the ride. haha. there was like a total of 7 of us in the car plus Ate Agnes the driver, and Thea. so there was 9 of us in there. wondering how we fit in? ASK ME! hahaha jayykayy! so we arrived at the Noodle House while Christine got money from the bank. i ordered "Wonton Noodle Soup with beef rolls" and a lemonade ofcourse. haha! AS USUAL! i love love love Wonton Soup; especially the one from Chowking. haha. so yeah. we were there for like the longest time. haha! we kept on laughing and laughing over stupid stuffs. i love talking to them. haha! Ninang is soo freakin' hi-la-rious. [grabeh ang punch lines. hahaha] i <3 you Ninang. then yeah! the guy there kept looking at me and Ninang. hahaha! he even waved at us when we looked at him. haha. i was all "OKAY?". hahaha then Joyce, Olive and Rodette started laughing. haha! we left there at around 3ish i guess! we paid over $50 just for our food. gadd, that`s A LOOOOT. okay now i`m broke. haha well, not really! i was the one who invited them anyways [: i <3 you girls. unfortunately, we didn`t have any picture because none of us brought a camera that day. well well well, i still haven`t bought a lithium coin yet. it`s koz i haven`t been to Walmart in awhile. i`ll try next week though.

yesterday during 6th was soo freakin' shady and funny and odd. Chris was being green again. haha. then Mark added too. then Gave. haha! STAY AWAY from me lil assholes. haha jaykay. i love those three guys. well, except Mark sometimes. he took the eraser my brother gave me. shit! oh well. Chris still owes me In-N-Out. haha. Yee owes me chocolate [: Laditrick is soo freakin' awesome. Gabe is the coolest [: I love Gabe. haha! yes i do [: i <3 it when he flirts with me. he said he likes me, but.... there are some certain things going on. hahaha! i still love you Gabe [: the day before yesterday was also cool [: after school, Mac walked me home. aawe, how sweet of him. he really waited for me outside of school just to walk me home. he said he got suspended for three days -_- aawe! the reason shall not be posted here. PRIVACY NEEDED! it was lame though. pshh. oh well! we talked about a ton of stuff when we were walking [: Thanks again Mac. i miss you too. haha! yeah, i used to be in his PE class before i got switched to RO. i miss him. [: Thanks Mac. love you.

okayy. so i feel like i`m closer to the guys now. i don`t know why. i think it`s because girls are plastics! NO OFFENSE! girls really are plastics. they`re good at making up stuff. so anyway. there are still a lot of girls out there who i trust [: i just hope they won`t change [: yesterday, when we were walking out of school, someone grabbed me from the back and tightly hugged me. at first, i wondered who it was. then when i looked over, it was Hannah [: she tried to talk to me but i just ignored her. i know it was lame and stupid and all, but i just didn`t wanna talk to her. she asked me why i was mad at her but i didn`t answer. not even a signal. idk, things are different now. but i still miss the old times.. yupp, i used to be really really close with her, but something between us and our "barkada" happened and we started to tear apart. i don`t even know if there`s still "Officials ng Barkada" going on right now. all of us just changed so fast! we don`t even hang out with each other anymore. well, i still hang out with everyone except Hannah and Rhon. i don`t think i still want to talk to her though.

Hannah - i know we`re not OKAY! that`s too obvious. thanks though, for trying to talk to me and fix things up but i`m just NOT ready! maybe when things aren`t heating up between us anymore, i can talk to you. but this is not the right time yet. YES, i`m mad at you. YES, i kinda hate you, but i still treat you as a friend. you were once my bestfriend. well, one of my bestfriends. we were super close before, but things just happened. i hope you understand my part too. I MISS YOU. ofcourse that won`t go away. we were friends for a looong ass time. i just really didn`t like how you acted these past few months. i know we can still fix things up. not just now. don`t rush me, PLEASE?

Kel - i miss you soo bad. 3 months of not talking to each other was really a disaster. i hated what happened to our barkada because it led everyone of us to not talk to each other. i miss you soo much. i know things have already been said but i`m just glad that things are starting to go back to normal again. i miss you Wifey [: remember that conference we had 3 months ago about our barkada! we all opened up to each other and i was touched with what you said. i spent Christmas and New Years with you last year and i will never ever forget that. i was really really touched by how you said it. "alam nyo ba? nung Christmas saka nung New Years, kami ni Jaja ang magkasama".. then everybody stared saying "aaawe".. i actually cried when you said that. ask Christine. [: i miss you soo much Wifey! i love you and that will never change!

I HATE HOW THINGS NEED TO BE SOO IMMATURE.

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i made this post a couple of hours ago but i couldn`t post it up because blogspot was acting retarded earlier. hahaha! last night, me and my tita made "turon" again out of boredom. haha yummy! i love love love turon. ohh, and skyflakes is my anti-drug. haha. the day before yesterday, i asked my mom to buy me skyflakes because i love it, and yesterday, when i came home, i went to the kitchen and i saw a box of skyflakes in the dining table. hahaha! i opened it right away and ate a pack. hahaha!

uhm. earlier at around 10ish, since i haven`t gotten my DSL back yet, me and my brother were just in the room and watched Laguna Beach because the replays were on. haha. i was waiting for the episodes that i missed but when i got to the part where Rocky and Breanna were talking, i fell asleep. haha. next thing i knew, my brother was asleep too and Laguna Beach was already done and over... err.. haha! being addicted to PDA makes you miss a lot of shows that you like. haha but it`s all good [: it`s all worth my time [:

i`m sorry for all the typos i made. i saw two of 'em when i was reading the whole thing.. haha i just can`t be bothered to correct 'em right now because whenever i try to, my post gets crappy. so yeah [:

i`m fucking pissed right now, i swear!! my mother is being a bitch again.. WHY ? well, she just cut off my DSL line lang naman.. pu**** ina. sorry for the inappropriate words but i just really can`t help it. she fuckin' gets on my last nerve now. omfg. i hate her, i hate her, i hate her >.<

i swear to fucking God, if i don`t get that fucking DSL back tomorrow, i`ll fucking run away from this house. i`m SERIOUS! mark my words.. i`m soo tired of this fucking life. everything is bullshit and everyone is a bitch. swear to god, i`m gonna fucking leave this house if i don`t get it back.

shit man!! this is such a big deal for me because this is my life, my happiness, and my everything. why the hell did she cut it off anyways ? her reason is fucking lame. she thinks i don`t give a shit on school because i`m always on the computer 24/7. she thinks i don`t do my hw because she thinks my eyes are always glued on PDA. the fuck is that ? she doesn`t even know what i do here. i fucking do my hw at midnight. she doesn`t see it because she`s always at work so why would she reason such thing like that ? god damnit. FUCK THIS LIFE! I`M MOVING AWAY!! FUCKING BITCHES! if i run away from this house, i`ll fucking swear to God that she will never ever see me again! FUCK THAT!

I`M USING THE FUCKING DIAL UP RIGHT NOW >.<

"Even though i remind myself that we'll most likely never be together, i just can't let myself fall for anyone else".
gadd, i`m kinda sorta scared :l i want my period to come already but it`s taking too long. okayy, i know i shouldn`t really say that here but i`m just disturbed. ohmygulay! i hope it comes this weekend or even sooner than that. on the brighter side, i finally got to eat "Hot Fudge Sundae" today. yumm! my favorite. Thank You Mama.

shortened day tomorrow! heeckk yeah! i`m going to buy that lithium battery for my camera already! haha! i miss it soo damn much. we`re getting off at 1:10. bwahaha! despite that good news though; i have a test in Chem, Math and US History all at the same time >.<

pretty Irish [: that`s what you call "complete packaging". hahaha.

i`m glad her voice is back to normal now. teehee! i took those pictures/scaps this morning before i went off to school. hahaha. i <3 <3 <3 Irish!

"Can you get to your future, if your past is your present?."

WOW! i haven`t blogged for three days. haha. i`m back with a new layout i made. okayy, i lied! haha i didn`t make it, but i found it in blogskins. haha! so like, last October 14th was our "2nd monthsary", and when we say "our", it means "me, Christine, and Jhoan`s monthsary as members of Pee Pee Gee" :D i love you guys, err, i meant "girls". thanks for everything. thanks for making this name stronger each day. now i can truly say that i don`t know what i`d do without you both! i`m always here, remember that [: thanks for being my twins today for "Twin Day" even though i kinda ruined it because i didn`t wear black underneath our Aero Polo shirt. haha! i`m still waiting for those pics we took [: another special moment that i`ll be adding in my "Memories List".

school`s been okayy even though i don`t really get enough sleep at all. to tell you the truth, and i know almost everybody knows that i am really not a day person! i`m the kind of person who would rather sleep all day and stay up all night. that`s me right there. i know it`s bad but i can`t change myself for that. when i say i`m a night person, that doesn`t mean i party a lot, it only means that i don`t usually sleep because i`m used to sleeping during the day, so yeah. the only disavantage of staying up all night is that my eyebags keep getting bigger and deeper each day! eewww right ? hahaha. so what ? i lose weight anyways. hahaha!

Irish all theeee way! i found her myspace koz she mentioned it in PDA a couple of days ago. haha! her last log in was on August 26th. hahaha. too long ago! i added her though; i just hope she accepts.. i`m sure she will [:




Irish is sick.. she can`t get up from her bed :[ aawe! her voice is gone too, as in totally gone!! Get well soon Rish! PDA is not worth watching without you in it. yuckk, EXAGGE! but oh please, i hope her voice comes back soon!

"Whether you're there permenantly or if you're only here temporarily, it no longer matters to me."

i`m not really sure if i like this layout that i have right now. it`s too simple but i don`t see it`s simplicity. err. i hate worrying about layouts. i`ve been trying to browse blogskins for the longest time yesterday just to find a cool, nice layout but i never found any. anyone nice enough to give me a free layout ? haha, as if >.< hahaha ="))">.< SUCKS! i have Art, Chem and US Hist. haven`t done my Chem hw yet but i`ll do it in awhile. i only have to finish the lab questions anyways! i didn`t do anything this weekend. gahdd, i slept almost the whole day today which is actually good. i really need to catch up with my sleep because my eyebags look soo scaaryy now! i wanna watch "Chainsaw" but i`m scared. hahahaha. i might just watch it when the dvd comes out. hahaha! i saw the "The Grudge 2" trailer, and hell, i don`t wanna see more of it anymore. jayykayy! haha. i lost something i should have not lost and i feel really really stupid about losing it. i`m not going to elaborate about it anymore because i think it`s pretty stupid if i do. so let`s just leave it like that. hahaha. i`m watching 24/7 LS now. Irish is missing again. hahaha i`ve been looking for her since uhh, i don`t know, but i couldn`t find her. haha how weird! so yeah! sorry for the randomness of this blog. i just really want to blog but i can`t think of a topic to bring up. everyone`s sleeping now except for me. c'mon, it`s only 10:25 PM and they`re already drooling i guess. haha jayykayy! i hate how the people here in my house sleep soo damn early. haha! i don`t think i can ever do that. hahaha.

i seriously want a nice layout -_- so i`ll go searching for some [:

"Forgetting someone you love, is like remembering someone you never met."

it`s 2 minutes before 12AM [: meaning, it`s almost Sunday morning. haha. i`ve been tuned on my 24/7 live stream since last night. WOW! i just turned my pc off for about 2 hours then i turned it on again and continued watching the ls. haha! up until now actually [: so like, Irish`s performance earlier was theee best one i`ve seen. not because she`s my favorite favorite but because she was really there when she was singing the song. gets ? hahaha! the judge told her that she`s blessed with beauty and voice and that he sees a diva in her. aawe! future star. WOW! i liked Yeng`s performance too but i kinda found it a lil bit OA towards the end. maybe it was because of her moves or something. but overall, i liked Irish`s the most. if you watched it, "CHEERS". if you didn`t, or you haven`t yet, "go watch it". haha.

i was like the happiest person this morning because it finally rained. my brother who was actually watching tv inside the room even came up to me just to say that it`s raining already! hahaha. i was soo happy! if you just know how much i love rainy days [: you wouldn`t really get confused right now. well, in case you are. hahaha! i love love love rainy days, and i`m so so glad that things are going the way i want them to. well, some. haha =))

YOU MOVE ME.

"Be nice to everyone you meet, they're fighting a battle you know nothing about."

so like, my bangs are acting retarded :I but on the brighter side, Thank God It`s Friday! hah. Mrs Rymer didn`t come today so we didn`t have a quiz about our freakin' Alma Mater. hahaha. she`s hella weird. she`s making us memorize our Alma Mater because according to her, we don`t sing it seriously and it seems like only a few people know how to sing the whole alma mater thing. hahaha! Crazy Red Devil day was effing retarded. nope, i didn`t wear anything red at all. people told me that the news yesterday said that if you don`t wear red today, you will get trasferred to Chula Vista High. hahaha i was like laughing the whole time. i didn`t know it because i didn`t come to school yesterday, but anyways, even if i did, i still wouldn`t wear red. fukc that Spirit! haha. our Principal is full of drama. hahaha jayykayy! turns out, Christine didn`t come to school yesterday as well. hahaha! =))

so like i was chatting with Joone awhile ago, right? and he was like, "ja, boldstar na naman yang avatar mo". freakin' hoe. jayykayy! what`s the problem with it though ? i don`t see anything wrong with that avatar. or maybe, Joone is really not just thinking straight. he`s green minded. hahaha! jayykayy Joone [: you know i`ll miss you soo much! i was waiting for you at school today but i didn`t even see you. we were supposed to go out right ? fuckin' hoe. you ditched me. haha jayykayy! he actually went there during lunch. *ehem* according to him, but he didn`t see me/us because our schedule was different due to the assembly, right ? so that was kinda messed up. i really really wanted to see him before he leaves. >.<



i recorded it last night [: haha. i <3 style="font-style: italic;">YOU..I... we can be together and we both know we are living in the same sky... MAYBE, we can last forever, there are chances and still YOU MOVE ME, you move me, you move me, you moooove me... ONE DAY, i`ll be saying yes". WHAT A NICE SONG! GO IRISH GO!

thanks to all who always visit my site [: i really appreciate it! WOW! lots of visitors from different parts of the world. THANK YOU VERY MUCH!

BAD BAD BAD.

"sometimes time goes by, and what you had, just goes away."

i didn`t go to school today :I why ? well, my body is soo sore to the point that i couldn`t get up this morning. chyupp, i think it`s because i haven`t been sleeping at all these past few nights. :I oh well. blame PDA, because it is soo addicting. hahaha! plus, i have a very bad diarrhea [okayy, do i really have to tell that one ?] hahaha. thank God i feel much better now! last night and this morning were freakin' laame. hahaha! don`t worry, i`ll be going back to school tomorrow [: Crazy Red Devil day, but i`m not wearing red, or any red at all. i don`t feel like it. hahaha! i`d rather wear something else. hmmm. we have an assembly tomorrow, yeehaaa, meaning, less time in class [: bwahahaha..

last night was soo entertaininhg. haha. i was chatting with Wowie and Joone at the same time and they were freakin' hilarious. hahaha! i`m sad that Joone`s leaving this Sunday for the Philippines and is not coming back until next year! i`m gonna miss you soo much Joone >.< hahaha. he also said that i look like a boldstar in my avatar which is NOT EVEN, i tell you. i still changed it though, because he said so. hahaha.

Me: guess mo bday ko.
Wowie: bigay ka ng clues.
Me: favorite number ng mga girls.
Wowie: 69
Me: cracks up =))

hahahaha funny shit. he just invented his own dates in the calendar.. hahaha that was soo funny last night.. and this one too..

Me: Joone, wak ka na uwi. mamimiss talaga kita.
Joone: ok lang yan. gusto ko nga mamiss mo ko eh.
Me: mag stick to one ka don okay ?
Joone: basta kapag nakabuntis ako dun, ninang ka ok ?
Me: wahahahaha =)) cracks up!

soo freakin' funny! hahahaha!

HAFI BERTDEY.

HAFI 17th BERTDEY JOHN CHRISTOPHER CASTANEDA!

pareh, you`re soo old na. hahaha! thanks for everything, especially today [: wheeeeeeee! i owe you way too much pareh! hahaha. aylabyoo [:

JC: thanks for the greeting again.
Me: no problem [: pakabait ka na huh ?
JC: what do you mean ?
Me: nothin'. hahaha.
JC: i'll take that as a compliment.
Me: ULOL! haha =))

Wowie boy! thanks for the hug today! hahaha [: i miss you. and uhh, Anthony and Marvin and Jeff, i miss you three [: anyways. someone i "love" looked at me today [: and smiled ? hahaha. Jerome, thanks for the stare. hahaha! Chris, thanks for serenading me with the song "Basta`t kasama kita". aawe, you`re such a sweetie. Yee, thanks for the hugs [: Gabe, you know i love you! hahahaha lotsa boys to greet [: but yeah! i love you all! -- i have PT tomorrow -_-

"& the older you get, the more you understand that sometimes, things just dont go your way. and all you can do is deal with it."

wow! it`s 2:16AM and i`m still up. haha. i don`t sleep at night, i`d rather sleep in the afternoon and stay up all night because that way, i get to do all of my hw and i get to watch PDA 24/7. haha. i <3 <3 <3 PDA, i swear to all the godesses out there. hahaha. anyway, first day back to school was freakin gnarly. i slept almost the whole time during 3rd period. had a test in ROTC wherein i got 12 out of 15. haha. and to think that i didn`t even study at all, i still answered most of the questions correctly! YAAAY! 6th period was totally lame. yes, i know it`s my favorite class and my most fave part of the day but this time, i was moody. most of the time, i was just resting my head down my desk because i was really really tired. i didn`t mean to yell at Yee when he tried to tickle me on the side because i was really really tired at that time. so yeah! almost everyone turned around when i yelled at Yee because it was really loud but i said sorry to him afterwards anyways so it`s all good now.

afterschool, whether you believe it or not, i went straight home [: chyupp! i don`t go anywhere else after school anymore because yeaaaaaaaahh. haha! anyways, when i got home, i got changed and went to sleep. haha! then woke up at 630 and took a shower. then ate a lil and went back to sleep. haha. woke up at 10 and went straight to the computer and started watching PDA LS [; until now! cyupp! so now i feel sleepy again so i guess i`mma take a nap for about 15 mins - 30 and go watch Irish as she practices her song [:

WHAT A CRAAAP!

"Some days when I see him, I feel like my heart's going to break into pieces, it hurts so much. And some days, I'm happy just seeing his face. I don't know why I keep making mistakes in front of him. And I keep saying things I don't mean."
-Se Jin, Wonderful Life"

... it`s Sunday once again; meaning, tomorrow, i`ll go back and face my oh so goosey teachers and slothful people again. i wanna take back whatever i said in my past blogs because i don`t wanna go back to school anymore. HAH! school is torture, whether you like it or not. it`s really up to us if we want to go to school, but as a limited minor like me who still relies on my mom, i have to work my ass off and meditate more. UGHH! no matter how many times i say that, it won`t mean anything at all.

... so last night was soo gnarly that i thought i could stay up all night again, but, ironically from what i have expected, at around 3ish in the morning, my body and my brain didn`t resist me anymore and i just suddenly broke down my bed and slept. FUNNY thing though, because i didn`t sleep for 2 nights straight and i thought i would be able to do it again but it didn`t turn out that way. hahaha! it`s all good though, atleast i got to catch up some sleep for the hell of school in a matter of day. shizzzz! tanann! haven`t done any Chemistry hw at all. how gnarly is that ? gahdd, pityness is all over me now! i`m fu--ing indolent and i so hate myself for that.

i have nothing really to talk about right now besides me getting more and more strung-out to PDA. yes, my addiction right now is like "drugs". once you like it, you`ll forever like it.. HAH! how did i know that ? I DON`T KNOW! i just felt it from what i hear about it all the fu--ing time. i don`t take drugs or any fu--ing recreational shits out there, i`m just saying that PDA`s existence is the best thing that ever happened this year. haha! Irish is theee shizzz!

the return of MYSELF! haha =))

"I`ll hold your hand for life. I`ll save the last dance for you. I won`t let go of your hand again. Forever." - Hyun Woo, Save Your Last Dance For Me

wheew! i didn`t blog yesterday. haha =)) i haven`t gotten enough sleep since Tuesday night. wheew! the night before yesterday; i slept at 4 in the morning then last night; i didn`t sleep at all. haha chyupp. i was up the whole night [: FUN FUN FUN! my mother woke up at around 5 in the morning to use the bathroom and she accidentally went to the living room and saw me sitting in front of the computer still. haha. she was all like "you`re still not sleeping" ? and i answered her back with a mellow voice like "i just woke up". hahaha! whata' bitch! haha jaykayy! thank goodness she didn`t start nagging on me! haha. i love you dear mother. haha okayy! so what kept me awake the whole night ? tanann... haha. i was watching PDA livestream the whole entire time. whoa right ? i`m soo hooked to it like hell. call me crazy but i can`t help it. hahaha! Irish is someone you`ll always want to look forward to. haha! she`s the bomb! yeah, that`s the word. hahaha! but yeah. she`s soo infectious! haha. i love love love Irish [:

today was Bituin Walang Ningning`s last episode. aawe! me, janjan and my tita were crying from the very start until the very end. whoaa! EXAGGE! haha. what can i say ? it`s ending is absolutely worth the wait. damnn, i can`t get enough of it until now. Sarah is soo good and she truly deserves an award for this. i`m gonna miss this show soo much. haha! it is definetly the best ending of a Filipino soap opera i`ve ever watched. i wish Sarah all the best and i hope to see her again in a soap opera soon. haha! this show is totally PRICELESS! i still have a hang over from it [: hahaha.

i cut my bangs a lil shorter awhile ago. haha! i dunno; i was really bored so i decided to cut it and copy Irish`s. haha. her bangs is to die for. hahaha! it`s soo pretty. so yeah, i copied it and i think it looks soo nice. haha. i wanted to fix someone`s hair. i wanted to put makeup on someone`s face. gahdd. i soo wish i had a sister so i can like fix her hair all the freakin' time. chyupp, i love fixing my hair soo much! it`s my expertise right there. haha. *sigh*, up until now; i still want to fix someone else`s hair =I i`m gonna put up a parlor when i start working and earn money for it. hahaha =))

i took these pictures myself! DUH, my name`s all on it. hahaha. 24/7 is soo addicting. gahd damn!

Irish rehearsing for her song [: PRETTYNESS!

aawee! she looks like snow white. hahaha!

gahdd. so stunning!

I <3>

gahdd she`s soo pretty!

IRISH ALL THE WAY [:

[this blog is supposed to be for Friday`s entry. it`s now 12:48AM so it`s counted as Saturday already. but don`t mind it. hahaha]

GO GO IRISH [:

"its not up to me anymore, if you want me in your life, you`ll find a way, to put me there .

*with a tone* Hearty has bangs.. Hearty has bangs.. haha [: i like her new haircut. it definetely looks gorgeous on her. we have the same length of bangs. haha! Gorgeous people these days. haha JAYKAY! i love Hearty. PSH, i always do =D i totally love her bangs. haha! i can`t get enough of it.

well well well. i was eating halo-halo that my tita bought from Red Ribbon. i didn`t like it but i finished it. haha! i like the one from Chowking better [: but oh well. i was hungry, so i didn`t really care. for breakfast i only ate corn soup and i didn`t even finish it because i didn`t like it for some sort of reason. haha! right now, uhmm, i`m about to eat pansit that my tita bought from Red Ribbon as well. btw, there`s Goldilucks here already [: their grand opening is within this month i believe. haha! i wanted to apply but nevermind! i still want to work at Chowking because i know lots of people who work there. hahaha! chyeaa whatever! i always say i want to work but it doesn`t even happen anyways! ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN VOICE so i should really work my ass off and find a job literally. haha! don`t just say it Jaja, do it. hahaha! okayy! shut up now!

Irish: everybody talks s h i t about everybody.. they talk s h i t about their s h i t they don`t like about you. but that does not mean they don`t like you as a whole.

i salute you Irish [: haha! that`s totally right. if people talk shit behind your back, expect that because they aren`t gonna hate you without any reason. DEAL WITH IT. people these days are very ENVIOUS of people. PDA is such an interesting show and it gets more and more interesting every single day because you actually get to see who`s real and who`s not. what happened the night before yesterday was very awful yet fun! the scholars were like fighting and screaming at each other. most of 'em even cried. Panky said she wanted to kill herself and unexpectedly, Yeng shouted at her and told her that if she wants to kill herself and die, then do it. hahaha! i didn`t think it was funny but it was FUN, sort of. i really really like the show! haha it`s somewhat annoying sometimes but it gets suuper duuper FUN most of the times. i love love Irish. she`s the only only reason i subscribed to that show! hahaha =)) yesterday, i was watching the livestream from the morning 'til today! haha. i think i only had 3 hours of sleep last night.. i tell you, watching this show is really really addicting. you don`t even see how fast time flies by! hahaha. it`s soo addicting and convincing and that`s what i love about reality tv shows [: just look at Laguna Beach for example, once you watch it, you`ll get hooked to it.

do you know this lil kid right here ? hahaha. i love him. he`s soo cuute. he plays the role "Pareng Jomar" in Super Inggo. chyupp, Budong`s bestfriend [: haha isn`t he adorable ? everytime i watch him on tv, i can`t help but say "aaawe". hahaha! he acts soo funny, but good. haha! i love it when he cries, he looks soo cuute [: good job Pareng Jomar. haha!
anyway, it is officially Bituing walang ningning`s last week. aawe! i`m gonna miss that show soo much. i may have not watched every single episode of it but i love the show soo effin much =[ i hope there`s another show for Sarah after this. well, i know there is, but yeah. her and Ai Ai make a good mother / daughter role! hehe. Go Dorina [:

i wanna eat rice with yummy ulam [: YUM! i haven`t eaten rice in sooo long >.<

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yey! i`m eating lil bits fudge brownies and my ever so favorite coconut juice [:

YEAH-YUH.

"im getting to the point where i dont even care, because when i did, it never got me anywhere."

YEEEEHA! i finally have 24/7 LIVE STREAM [: and that only means one thing: more watching, less blogging from now on...

hahaha. JUST KEEDING [: i`ll still blog like before.

my mother is complaining about me not wearing my glasses when i`m in front of the computer, eyes almost glued in the monitor, tryena read the stuff that`s in it. hahaha. so now i have to wear my glasses when i`m using the pc and even when i`m watching tv [: how cool is that ? haha.

PDA stuff - LEAVE PANKY por favor ? you`re not deserving to be in the academy. you`re an evil person and you`re not a good role model to others.. freakin' backstabber >.<

"i believe we write our own stories, and each time we think we know the end, we dont."
SHAME on Bituin Escalante [sp?] because everytime my mom sees her performing on tv, she has the manerism [sp?] of always putting her arm[s] up so people ALWAYS see her black armpits. haha! it`s not being MEAN st all. if you`re an artist, you should know that because a lot of people watch you and they actually look up to you. gahdd.

anyways, i love love reading KC Concepcion`s blogs [: chyupp, i`m one of her daily readers who can`t get enough of her daily blogs. haha! i envy her passion! she`s a greeeat writer indeed. now that`s a real role model right there [: not only beautiful outside, but also in the inside [: Good Job KC. if you just know how much i envy you. haha! as if she`s reading this. well.

PDA stuff - i like the moment when Irish told Kristoff that PDA is really a game. she knows that it is not only a singing competetion but is also a game. that`s the attitude right there.. don`t take everything personally because it`s just a part of the competetion. as what Eman pointed out to Kristoff, "the real competetion is not inside the academy, it`s outside." [in Tagalog though] haha [: i love love Irish [: i like her even more because of her straight forward attitude. she seems to have the most complete package among the scholars: looks, voice, brain, and attitude! so i go for Irish 'til the end [:

Irish said it best,"this is a game! you should put you game face on!"

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it`s now 11:02PM and i just finished watching PDA Update [: haha addiction, mehn. omg, now i am soo desperate to subscribe on the livestreaming thing. errrr! i hate this! when i get addicted to a certain show, i can`t control it anymore.. haha! i`m telling you now, i have to subscribe asap. haha damnit. i forgot my dear mother`s credit card information though. err. i listed it up on a paper way back before so that i won`t have to ask her again for it because i know that she`s not gonna let me use it but hell, i forgot where i put it in. gahdd. i need it soo bad. chyupp, i am soo desperate now.. i can`t get enough of watching Irish only in youtube so i really have to subscribe to that 24/7 live streaming thing.. gahdd... haha! somebody help me por favor ?

OBSESSIOIN, THAT IS.

"The journey between what you once were and who you are now is where the dance of life really takes place."
PDA is like an illness; it`s soo infectious. haha. well yeah, i`m kinda starting to get addicted to it now. if you`re wondering who my favorite scholar is, of course it would be Irish [: yupp, she`s the one from California and i must also say the most prettiest among all of the girls in the academy. haha. i like her personality soo much because no matter how many people tell her that she`s pretty and all that, she accepts it like nothing. i mean, she`s not the kind of girl who becomes soo greedy and all that when people give her compliments like that. she`s such a beautiful person inside and out that`s why i`m not even wondering why most of the guys in the house are inlove with her [: oh yeah, i`ve already seen her before she entered PDA. remember the Maalaala Mo Kaya episode of Hearty and freakin' Geoff last September 15, 2005 ? she was the owner of the flower shop in San Francisco wherein Hearty worked as a helper. yupp, that`s her [: no wonder why i said before that her and Hearty really do look alike. hahaha =)) i love Irish! she`s soo professional [: and yes, she has a complete package of everything [;