"Cinderella is living proof that a pair of shoes can change a girls life."
this`ll be short [: it`s past 11PM already so i can`t really be asked to write a long post right now. uhm, i don`t really know what to say but i`m getting addicted to this one show called "PDA". haha. here it goes again; my damn obsession! oh well. before, i really thought that the show isn`t worth watching at all because all they ever do there is sing and perform and yeah. but a few days ago, as i started watching it`s episode day by day, i then realized that it actually gives out morals and lessons and all. now don`t get me wrong, the show is really worth watching after all. hahaha!

so yeah! i`ll continue this oh so wonderful blurbs of mine tomorrow koz i really am jaded right now and all i wanna do is sleep. haha! so yeah. good night dear readers and have a wonderful weekend [:

FRIDAY = WHAT ?

"We attach ourselves so strongly to people, & when they're gone, a part of us is gone too."
10:35 AM - the time i woke up today. nice [; i have some good news. my cable`s back. hahaha! chyupp. time to be a couch potato again. i`m soo bored. noone`s online; i think they`re still at school. *sigh* i`m eating strawberry yogurt [; YUM!

12:01 PM - myspace is boring. i`ve been on since i woke up and i haven`t received any new comments yet! err. where are all the people today ? haha. it`s Friday! anyway, i`m gonna die soon because of boredom so i`m gonna leave now and watch some Laguna Beach [: hahaha. be back later.

haha =)) just after i submitted this entry, i went on myspace and i received a comment and a picture comment from Faye. haha. i miss you girl [: one more week. yeahyuhh! haha. see Jaja ? stop whinning okayy ? hahaha.

1:13 PM - i`m back. haha. i just finished watching all the deleted scenes from Laguna Beach Season 2 and the casts videos as well. i can`t believe how obsessed i am to that show. now i am soo craving to buy the Season 1 dvd set because i am soo dying to see how Dieter and Jesicca fell in love with each other. hahaha. wheee.

i made a "to do" list earlier about what i`m gonna do each day next week. haha. i still need to fix my room and my clothes and my other stuff. err. i still need to do my hw, if there`s any. haha. then uhh, i need to have enough sleep because my eye bags are freakin' big and deep now and they look extra ugly. haha. then blah blah blah. whatever, i`m downloading all the episodes of Laguna Beach Season 1 from limewire. yehess!

3:50 PM - just finished watching the first two episodes of Laguna Beach Season 1. Thanks a lot to limewire. haha =)) i`m now downloading the 3rd and 4th episode of it [: gahdd, i still wanna buy the dvd set though! jeeez, i`m soo confusing. anyways, i`m alone right now. my mom left for work already and my tita and janjan haven`t arrived yet [: so yeah! you know what i think ? i think LC`s better than Kristin when it comes to narrating. haha. i like how she narrates in Season 1. it`s soo fetch. haha yeah whatever. i`m about to watch MTV now. hella bored!

6:51 PM - my stomach aches >.< and i don`t know why! anyways, did you get to watch Kristin Cavallari`s PUNK'd episode ? haha it was soo funny. she was literally crying already. it was soo good. haha! chyupp. i watched it earlier. she`s totally drop dead gorgeous! don`t chu just love Kristin ?

topsy-turvydom.

"somewhere along the line, I started hurting the people I care most about, and I can't figure out how to stop." - [One Tree Hill]
i`m getting fat. oh no! people here at my house keep telling me that i`m getting fat now because everytime they see me, i`m always eating something which is actually true. ughh! see ? i will never ever stay at home during intersession anymore! rawrr. there`s like absolutely nothing to do here except eat, sleep, computer, and the same exact things over and over again! gahdd, i don`t wanna gain weight ='( it`s only the second week of my vacayy and i think i`ve gained more than 5 or 10 pounds already. omg, i swear to god, you don`t wanna see me right now. haha =)) i have exactly ten days to lose weight [;

too much chaos is going on between my relatives here and back in the Philippines. err. they`re like arguing over really stupid stuffs, like our house there that they didn`t take good care of and stuff like that. i hate it though because my dad built that house and we really took good care of it when we were there and we always kept it clean and nice and fresh looking and when we left, *POOF*, it got abandoned and was left dirty and stuff. don`t chu hate it ? gahdd. i missed our old house. i missed my room [well, me and my siblings' room] and i missed everything about it. *sigh* when we went back there last April, i saw that they made my room like a "bodega" and it hit me right away. seeing your old room turns out to be the place where they put all kinds of things and stuff in is really a sad thing to think. gahd. how i wish we could turn back the time. well.

i wanna go back to school already. i need money! hahaha =)) but really though, i miss being in class and eating in China Town [a certain place where all Asians, well, Filipinos hang out together.] haha. it`s soo cool because they call our place "China Town" and they call the other side "TJ" because that`s where mostly all Mexicans hang out. [; it`s soo cool! hahaha. so yeah! i miss being bored reading during 1st period class which is English. haha. i miss talking and laughing so hard with Joyce during 2nd which is Art. i miss whining at my Math teacher a lot because his class is always freezing. haha. i miss being all scared of Mrs. Rhymer because for me she is the scariest and the most strict teacher ever. i miss doing drills and having fun with my fellow cadets in 5th period which is ROTC. and most of all, i miss talking and laughing a lot with the best people around me in 6th period which is US History. haha. see how much i love all my classes ? chyupp. i miss school soo much! but it`s ironic though because once we`re at school already, it`s like we hope that there`s no school forever and ever anymore. hahaha. ironic, right ?

no cable today. err. i couldn`t watch tv since this morning. when i woke up, i was like "wtf`s wrong with this" ? then yeah. mommy told me that they`re fixing it and stuff already. err. it`s annoying because i wanted to watch this certain show but i couldn`t. oh well. atleast i still have access on the internet. i totally don`t know what would happen to me when my computer doesn`t work. i would most probably hang myself. hahaha! anyway! yeah yeah. i was kinda bored earlier so i decided to fix my myspace a bit. it looks nice though [: i don`t care about your interpretation for that but oh well, i still like it. hahaha.

before.... i thought i can`t live without a cellphone, but now i realized i actually can! haha. it`s been 2 months since i last had a cellphone and uhh.. so far so good! hahaha. =)) what i can`t really live without is a camera. shitt. i miss my camera sooo bad. apparently, i`m getting a new one [; hahaha. i just don`t know when but i think it`s not too long til i get a new one again. haha! NO, i`m not a spoiled lil brat. and NO, i`m not a bratinella. and NO, it`s not because i`m the unica hija.. it`s because my grades are high and i`m becoming more focussed on my studies which is actually good.

have you seen the new released iPod Nanos yet ? it`s like they just painted 'em with colors. haha jaykayy! i still love my iPod, though i rarely use it anymore [:

most awaited event: WE`RE GOING BACK TO THE PHILIPPINES APRIL OF 2007. 7 more months, bebeh [; wheeeeee!!

PUBLIC AFFAIR [:

"life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass; it's about learning how to dance in the rain."
haha :) i think i feel better now. a looot better than the past few days that passed. i`m soo bored though. teehee! i just finished watching all the episodes in the 2nd disk of the Laguna Beach dvd set. hahaha! that`s my only happiness right there, so don`t blame me if i keep talking about it here. haha! without Laguna Beach, i`m DEAD. chyupp. anyways, i made a slideshow video yesterday but it wouldn`t upload in youtube. wth ? i tried it twice but still wouldn`t work so, WHATEVER! hahaha.

All the girls' stepping out for a public affair; All night,let`s rock,cause the party don`t stop... hahaha! Jessica Simpson is awesome! i love love love her. okayy. what`s up with being random ? haha. omg, i don`t ever wanna believe that Nick Lachey is hooking up with Kristin Cavallari. oh hell no! haha. but oh well. it`s true though. Kristin and Jessica S. do look a like [:

oh-wee! Ateneo won against UST. hell yes, baby! i wish i could`ve been there and watched it live. errr! anyways, tomorrow`s the rematch at the Araneta Colesium. i freakishly wannna watch it. euww, what a word. but doood, i really really really really want to see it live. oh well. Go Blue Eagles [:

i`ll be back later [; i`m gonna be a couch potato now. haha! my mother is soo hooked to all GMA shows. hahaha. on the other hand, my tita is soo addicted to PDA. chyupp. everytime i see her laughing, it`s because she`s watching the show. haha! craaazy people these days! i`m deeply inlove with my computer. hahaha! oh yeah. i updated my lj account. check it out. okayy, be back later.

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eaaat bulaga [; hahaha =)) i love that show! chyupp. anyways. i just finished taking a shower, so yeah. i feel soo fresh! hahaha =)) i miss my long hair ='( damn! i want a long hairrr. haha. i promise i won`t cut my hair ever again. haha. chyupp! anyway, i got to upload the slideshow i was telling you about already.. YAY! here it is. hahaha =)) click for a larger view, or whatever you wanna call it haha.



this slideshow makes me miss my camera even more.. ='( haha =)) am i VAIN much ?

WHERE ARE YOU ?

"In love, a heart can never be stolen... it goes where it wants to."
i feel so emotional today. i`ve been listening to a lot of sentimental songs over and over. can someone tap me on the back and ask me what`s up with me ? i`m soo aroused about what has been happening lately. why can`t i accept the fact that people come and go ? why can`t i accept the fact that we all don`t know what`s happening tomorrow ? why can`t i accept the fact that one of my bestfriends is already GONE ? why ? why ?

last night, i was having a very hard time sleeping because i had a lot of things in mind. i don `t know how to explain it all but it`s bugging me soo much. i hate being far away with my loved ones. i wish i know what`s happening with them every single second. i wish i can just be with them anytime i want. why does life need to be unfair ? why does it need to be unfair to me atleast ? sometimes i just want to give up, but everytime i try to, hope whispers, one more try. i hate that.

i guess today`s not the right time for me to blurb about things that happened. i am soo confused. i wanna talk to God and ask him why he has to get all the ones i love ? sometimes i get mad at him, but everytime i try to get mad at him, i ask myself "do i have the right to" ? call me crazy, but he is sometimes soo unfair ='(

oh god, please bring back the old me. i miss my old self soo much.. please tell me i can forget all these things easily. please tell me i can easily move on.

my uncle from the Philippines called awhile ago but he wouldn`t tell me exactly what happened to Mape. i guess he jus didn`t want me to cry more. *sigh* i wanna call my friends in the Philippines. i need a phone card -_-

I MISS YOU SO MUCH ='(

"I know you`re watching down on me from heaven... but i still wish you could be watching over me down here"

i miss you, bestfriend ='( why did you leave me ? us ? why ? up until now, i still can`t believe that you`re really GONE. i don`t even wanna believe it, but what can i do about it ? it`s the truth, and i can`t just change that anymore. i miss you soo much bestfriend ='( it was my mom who told me about this awful news yesterday. i was happily chatting with some of my friends when suddenly, my mom came out of the room, holding the phone and told me that she just finished talking to my cousins back in the Philippines and apparently, one of my cousins told her that you are GONE! i was shocked when i heard it, but ofcourse i didn`t believe it at first, so i went to google and typed up your whole name. there, everybody was all talking about you, and how you died. after that, i was numb. i didn`t know what to feel. then minutes later, i started crying because i realized that i just lost a bestfriend of mine for 11 years. why you ? i keep asking myself that question. it`s really hard to believe. the last time i saw you was when i went back there in April of this year, and i didn`t even know that that was actually the last time i`ll see you alive. gahd, this is soo unbelievable. i remember when we were just little, i used to go to your house like every single day because your mom makes the best merienda ever. i remember when we joined this dance competetion and we won 3rd place. i remember every Sunday, we used to go to church together because we were members of the 4PM mass. i remember every Saturday, instead of going to choir practice, we would always sneak out and go to the store close to the church and just eat in there. i remember when we had this singing competetion at church and we literally had the same style of hair and makeup because only one gay person did our hair and makeup. i remember every time we would join something, either dance or singing competetion, we would always have the same hairstyle and makeup. i remember during 5th grade, you lent me money because my wallet got stolen that day. i remember when we went swimming one time, we didn`t allow people to use the videoke because we just kept on using it. oh my god, we basically have a lot of memories together and i will never ever forget any of those. i miss you soo much bestfriend ='( you`re such a beautiful person inside and out. i`ve seen you grown into a beautiful young lady because we almost grew up together. 11 years of friendship is a treasure, i tell you. i may not be able to see anymore but i will never ever forget you. i miss you soo much bestfriend. i wish i was there until your last day. i wish could`ve went to all of your wakes and funeral. i wish i could`ve said goodbye to you personally. i miss you soo much bestfriend. it`s really hard for me now to move on after what happened to you. why you ? you`re too young to die. you`re only 15 and you have a lot of dreams in life. i was soo proud of you when i went back there because your name was everywhere in our place. you being the Lakambini of Orion 2004. oh my god, now it`s all gone. i will definetly miss you soo much, bestfriend. you`re such a big loss to everybody! i wanna see you bestfriend. i wanna see you ='( i know you`re happy with God now. all i`m asking is for you to guide us everywhere we go and make us strong. i hope that someday, we will meet again ='( i love you soo much Maria Fe Amaca. you are such a great person, classmate, girlfried, daughter and best friend to all of us. i love you soo much, and i always will ='( UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN!

GOODBYE BESTFRIEND ='( I AM GOING TO MISS YOU SOO MUCH ='(

"Confidence is the best accessory" - LC [Laguna Beach Overdrive]
ever wonder why the quotes that i`ve been using this past few days are all made and said by LC ? haha. she`s just one of a kind. yesterday, i finished watching all the Overdrive episodes of Laguna Beach and from there, i found that LC really has a talent in making up quotes. haha she`s actually soo good at it =D gahdd, i love her sense of style too. it`s more of a laid back, mellow girl type and i love it very much. haha. i love her house times infinity. haha! i want to buy the The Hills Season 1 dvd set already but it`s not even out yet. hahaha =)) oh well! i`m soo random [; but anyway, did you get to watch the video that i put down there ? SAD, huh ? gahdd, i cried a lot on that. and even my brother did also. hahaha! i miss Jessica and Kristin ='( aawe! i saw Jessica`s personal blogspot yesterday. haha! i`m soo lucky!

i wanna go out. err. i wanna go somewhere. i wanna sleepover at someone`s house again. haha. i`m soo bored over here. there`s like nothing productive to do all the time. my mom`s not even talking to me and i don`t know what`s wrong with that. haha! oh well. Christine and Ninang [Jhoann] if you happen to be reading this right now, damnn, we need to go out. haha =)) i miss you both oh soo much! gahdd, we need to go somewhere and have fun! Christine, i miss our Margaritas session together. hahaha! i miss drinking with you. but not the vomiting part. haha jaykay! i love you Christine [: uhh, Ninang, i miss you soo much ='( the last time i saw you was at Joyce`s debut and that was it. err. i know what you were feeling on the 22nd of September, koz.. yeah! but don`t worry about it Ninang [; as what i always tell you, just concentrate on what`s going on right now because past is past and what matters most is the things that are happening now [: thanks for always listening to me Ninang [; i love you soo much and remember: i`m always here [; haha. i miss you two soo much! i miss my "Pee Pee Gee" [: CALL ME, PLAN SOMETHING OUT, AND LET`S LEAVE. haha.

euww. i hate those perverted men who just come out of nowhere and start chatting with you with such a perverted attitude. that`s fu--ing gross, gahddamn. get a life, a--holes. err.

oh well. time to put my background music back. teehee [; i`ll be back later to edit for i can`t be asked to make a long post right now koz i really really have nothing prolific to say [:

btw, i made a livejournal account but i set it to private viewing ONLY [; there, i`m going to put every single thing that i can`t put here. haha. so yeah. if you wanna see my private posts, you have to add me, or else, you won`t see anything [: again, it`s Private, so don`t go wasting your time looking for my posts if you know that you`re not even added to me in the first place [: if you have a livejournal account, add me up [: anyways, here it is. CLICK HERE.

aawe. i miss him soo much ='( this picture was taken last April, 2006 when i went to the Philippines [; we were on our way to Pampanga here [: i miss you bunso! Ate loves you mucho grande [:

bunso with my glasses. haha.

i love him way tooo much!

that`s me on the left. haha. wasted people going gala again. [:

i <3 ading isa.

aawe. haha jaykay! at the park.

at school [: June, 2006 [: in front of our library. haha.

haha =)) love my bangs.

eeeeeeeeeeee. red [: how nice.

i miss my camera >.< euww. haha. i look like a prostitute there.

with my glasses.

mwuaahh!

Ading Isa is sooo pretty.

haha i dunno why i posted this picture up. haha.

at the park. one summer day! had a picnic with some friends and adings.

last day of school [: we ditched school and just went to Mcdonalds. haha. i was too lazy to dress up so i looked soo trashy on this pic. haha. who cares ? it was our last day anyways.

wdf ? haha. model ?

i miss my bawang soo mucch ='( what a chink!

what a chink again -_- can`t live without eyeliner. and carmex ofcourse [;

euww me. haha. i<3 jaja dos

whatever.

chinks! haha =)) i miss you han ='( really! 4th of July [:
4th of July. haha. we got bored waiting for the damn fireworks.

"It`s not always what you`re wearing. It`s how you wear it" - LC [Laguna Beach Overdrive
SHIT! fuck that. i typed a long ass entry, then "kaboom", it`s all gone.. errrr! it`s like super duper long already and there`s no way i can type that whole thing again. errr. shitt. i`m sooo pisssed. oh well. i`m not retyping that whole shit anymore so, WHATEVER! gahdd. i`m really pissed.

anyway, i`ll just show you guys a video from my favorite favorite scene of Laguna Beach. it was from the last episode wherein everybody was all saying their goodbyes to everyone already [; it was so so sad. this part is when Jessica and Kristin were saying goodbyes to each other and just so you know, i cried buckets on this particular scene and my eyes were all swollen after watching it over and over. hahaha. i just love Kristin and Jessica oh soo much. anyway, here it is. i recorded it from my brother`s portable dvd player before my camera got busted. hahaha =)) you should go buy the Laguna Beach season 2 dvd set, i tell you, it`s worth watching (:



just so you know, i deleted my background song for awhile so that you`ll be able to hear the sounds clearly [; haha. don`t worry, i`ll put it back again tomorrow morning. the title of my bg song is the same as the song that is playing on the video. it`s called "Never Gone" by the Backstreetboys [; i love love love this song. kthanksbyee!

JUST LAUGH IT OFF

"Don`t hate your haters for they will die, eventually" - Jaja [;
whew! hey guys (: i told you so. haha. do you believe me now ? see, i`m soo effing right, right ? hahaha. she`s a damn looser! haha. i told you so (: haha. she has an effing high pride and remember what i told you about what her worst attitude is ? she twists things around. see ? hahaha. thanks for tagging on my tagboard, Mara (: haha. now we know who you truly are. you know what everyone said ? "i wish i have her confidence". haha. everyone`s jealous of your confidence. it`s like suuuper high! haha. you know what ? if i just have your confidence, i would also tell everyone the things you keep on saying or even nicer than those. haha. you`re soo effing funny, i swear! i mean, everytime you say something about you, we just can`t help but laugh. bwahaha! your pride, girl (: LOWER IT DOWN! ahaha. we`re scared koz maybe the next time you come here, you just tag out of nowhere and tell us that you`re family owns every single village in the Philippines ALREADY. hahaha. now, HOW COOL IS THAT ? well Mara (: i just wanna tell you this (: BE CAREFUL with everything you say because God`s eyes are always on you. your family is religious, right ? then you should know that. what you`re doing is wrong, Mara (: call me a bitch or slut, i don`t care. atleast i don`t lie as horrible as you do. atleast i don`t have such a high pride like you. atleast i don`t make things up just for people to like me. i`ve been telling you this and will keep telling you that if you want to have "friends", be yourself. don`t try to be someone that you`re not. you know what i truly see on you ? i see INSECURITIES. like lots of 'em. you like Paris Hilton right ? or Lauren Conrad ? that`s why you`re doing all of these because you want to be just like them. don`t try so hard, Mara (: it`s okayy to idolize people but not to the extreme that you`d say lots of things that aren`t even true. don`t copy people just because you wanna be like them. copy them because they give you inspiration and all. don`t try to be someone that you`re not. refresh your mind, Mara (: it seems like you`re lost and can`t find your way back to the original you! i met you 3 years ago and the Mara girl that i met is way different than the Mara girl that i`m facing now. your personality is full of insecurities and guilt and pride, and if you think it`s good, well it`s not. as what i always say; the more you try to say lies about yourself, the more people tend to feel bad for you. i don`t think you have respect for your own self because you don`t even care what the hell you are saying anymore. you have the right to hate me, i understand that, but you don`t have the right to seduce me nor everyone else with everything you say. apparently, i wouldn`t really treat you like this if you`re not becoming an immature person. if you think i`m trying to embarass you or trying to make you sira to everyone, well i`m not. i just wanna see the old you. get me ? you`re soo different now. i`m not saying i didn`t change, but look at the gap between us. you`ve gone up so high. you`re pride is drowning you and you`re not even seeing or feeling it. LOWER YOUR PRIDE, atleast. i don`t really care if you`re keeping all these things to your mind or not, but seriously, i just want you to realize all these things i`m saying. okay, do this one atleast: forget everything you`ve heard me said about you and forget about what people have commented about you, that way, try to picture in your mind what our friendship probably might have been if these things never happened! see ? we probably have been seen each other already and hung out together and such, but in reality, it`s the way opposite around. see what i`m trying to say here ? i want you to change! i know, we know, things have already been said but you know that i forgive and forget. this is what ? our 3rd or 4th fight already ? and what ? did all those first 3 fights make us any better ? THEY DIDN`T, right ? so what`s the point of wasting our salivas talking and nagging on each other ? goshh! i know this is lame. but hell, i can`t take it anymore [; i`m not trying to be nice here for more people to side me because i know that`s what you`re thinking right now. copying me nor any specific person will not make you look better, trust me on that. we are all UNIQUE in our own different ways! we are all beautiful, and stylish and smart and glamourous. Simplicity is beauty (: sometimes, the people who are just really simple and plain are mostly the ones who stand out the most! KEEP THAT IN MIND (: i think i can be a journalist as well. haha jaykay! anyways, yeah, i don`t hold grudges against people, especially if those people have been very special to me so don`t think that i`m embarassing you and all. FINE, BASH me again (: i don`t care anymore! just change! POR FAVOR! you`re not MARA. you`re someone else and it`s scary and ridiculous and lame and horrible and awful and all. REMEMBER: LOWER YOUR PRIDE!

I FEEL SORRY FOR YOU :(

"Why do we always seem to want what we can't have?"
well. i don`t know how to start this entry but all i know is that everyone i know feels sorry for Mara [my solid hater ever since] now. aawe! poor lil pig. i meant, poor lil kid. ahaha. gahdd, i feel a lot sorry for you (: you have such a high pride and the more you show it to people, the more they tend to feel sorry for you. rawr, that`s kinda ironic but it`s true. you have such a low self-esteem that you over dream too much about things that you don`t even have. ahaha! oh and by the way: learn how to write proper english, spell right english, and speak good english! ahaha! well, i don`t think you belong here anyway ((: ahaha!

warning: random post ahead; so please bear with me (:

Pakner. i miss miss miss you soo much (: those four letter word is not even enough to express how much i miss you. haha drama! but seriously, i miss the old times. i rarely catch you online anymore. or shall i say - i never catch you online anymore =(( aawe, how sad is that ? but oh well. i still love you pakner. ahaha :)) and yeah, don`t mind about that girl [referring to Mara ofcourse]. people these days are trying to be someone that they`re not. we should love our haters because they make our lives complete (: ahaha. we love you Mara (:

moving on! dear Christine and Jhoann, i miss you both oh soo much! we need some "Pee Pee Gee" bondings before school starts again in uhh, October something. ahah. i miss you both oh soo much even though the last time i saw you guys aren`t that long enough (: ahaha i`m soo shallow, but damn. i wanna see you both soo bad. let`s kick it sometime. plan something out. i thought we`re going out tomorrow ? ahaha (:

haha dudes and dudettes (: freakin' Mara won`t leave the fuck outa me. ahaha. she freakin' loves me oh soo much. i swear to all the goddesses, if you start a conversation with her, she wouldn`t talk about anything but lies about her and her pathetic life. She has a lonely life, that`s why she overdreams too much. but like my friends told me "pagbigyan mo na lang. kung yan ang kasiyahan nya eh, then let her be". ahaha, you`re right guys (: i`ll just let you drown with your lame fairytale dreams (: poor lil Mara. if you were just leaving here in San Diego right now, you might have been bullied by soo many people already and you will live a very pathetic life forever.. haha! *sing with me* LONELY, POOR LIL PIGGY! hahahahaha =)) whew! i love talking about you in my site (: ahaha. i just love getting you embarassed in front of all the people who read my blogs. ahah! too bad, they all feel BAD for you.. ahaha!

I MISS MY CAMERA ='(

"You`re not even mine and I`m afraid to lose you" - Jaja ='(
i miss my camera soo much. i think i`m going to die anytime soon just because i haven`t used my camera for so long now. it seems like forever since i last used it and heck, it`s killing me. in the first place, i don`t even know if it`s broken or not because according to Joyce and JC, i just need to buy a new lithium coin for it because it`s dead already but for me, it seems broken because it makes some sound whenever i shake it. damnn! i miss it soo bad ='( i think i need a new camera already.

anyway, 3rd day of vacation was freakin' boring. as usual, i didn`t do anything productive today. err. i hate being stucked inside the house for the whole effing day. i wanna go somewhere. i need a job so bad. i wanna go shopping. i need to fix my room. i need to save money! HELL, my life is soo deadening >.<

THIS PART HAS BEEN DELETED ;) i`m nice, so i won`t let anyone read it anymore koz i don`t want her to get embarassed in front of everyone in the whole world. haha!

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hey loser "you know who you are" or shall i also call you "janinelyns" ?. haha. i see you read my blog earlier at exactly 10:26PM, huh ? haha. how did i know ? ask the technology, and it`ll tell you, FASHO! bwahaha! you`re such a loser. keep viewing my site okay ? you`re my favorite visitor. haha. die with your insecurities. guess what ? ever since you made up a "janinelyns" sn, i was already going to curse you out but then i stopped, and i told myself "i think it`s a fun idea if i play with this bitch", and so i did and heck was it funn! haha. remember the first time i chatted with you and you said that nobody likes you because you`re UGLY ? haha that`s actually TRUE! you got that right girl (: and it came from your mouth already. i actually laughed when you told me that, and i was like "poor Mara, i think if she only had a lot of money, she could have done a plastic surgery already". ahaha. poor bitch. and about the latest quote that you copied from me, don`t say that you got that from The Hills, koz like DUH! i`m sure you`re not that DUMB not to know that there are gabazillion quotes that exist out there. why would you copy such quote from me when you know that that`s not the only quote that exists in this world ? haha. you`re soo stupid, seriously. do you really want to be me or something ? koz if you do, just tell me and i`ll be glad to give you some advice. don`t be OA and find ways to make an ANTI comment about this. you`re soo stupid. stop copying me, bitch. God`s watching you, he knows every lil bullshit that you`re doing. be contented with what God has given you. if you want to be pretty and look cool, then just be yourself. don`t make up stories koz it just makes you look poorer and just when you think people believe in what you say, they actually feel sorry for you because you have such a high pride. haha. lower your pride, por favor ? oh well. keep copying me if you want; as if you will be just like me. PSSHH. live life, don`t live with your dreams =))

haha =)) hey people. don`t chu feel sorry for this girl ? but please don`t torture her, nor say bad things to/about her because i don`t want MORE people to feel sorry for her. just keep your thoughts to yourself and LAUGH IT OFF =)) JEALOUS people these days.. YA KNOW ? =))

just finished watching Laguna Beach 20 minutes ago. haha =)) Cameron`s a bitch. wth`s wrong with him and he keeps copying Jason ? and uhh, Jessica always falls for the players. shizzz, i feel sorry for her. i love Jessica. omg, how many times have i mentioned that already ? haha. oh well. Tessa, get over Cameron. he has a gf already, okay ? haha. and uhh, Kydra, you`re such a slut. haha. i don`t think i can ever like you, and Cami as well. euwww. i like Rocky, she`s always cool! and Chase is the only cute guy in this fuckin' season! the rest are all ugly like hell. nomore hott Jason, double hott Stephen and cute Talan =(( oh well. i still love Laguna Beach. and omg, i`m soo gonna buy the "The Hills" dvd set when it comes out ;) i missed LC.

haha =)) this was at Teressa`s house, getting ready for Joyce`s parteee. i loved my hair a lot, and my make up, and my bangs, and all. haha.

blowfish. haha. i`m such a chink. shizz.

yuckk! feeling lil kid ? haha keeding. i was just trying to make my eyes look big. yeah, WHATEVER!

peeace YO (: back to being CHINKY again. my make up was too simple ;) why ? because simplicity is beauty (:

love love love my bangs (:

*ehem, BE JEALOUS MARA (: i`m not forcing you not to this time :D hahaha.

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hey people. guess what i found ? haha. look at this. enlarge the pic and read it ;)

stare at her picture. haha =)) anyway, what the hell are you saying ? you kept viewing my friendster profile and your fucking face kept appearing on my fucking profile views so ofcourse i would go to your page, you dumbass. love you ? FUCK NO! hate you ? WHO DOESN`T ? haha =)) and you? on my mind ? HUWATAFAK ? that`s even funnier. what do you think of me ? a dreamer ? haha. and if i`m a devil, then what are you ? haha =)) a wild, ugly PIG ? haha ohh, what`s worse than that ? damn girl, stop ENVYING ME. look at your face. your eyebrows are soo sabog. your clothes are soo yuck. your hair! what the fuck ? get bangs or something. or atleast just leave it loose. haha, i`m giving you some advices already. damn girl! you must love me soo much. haha. you`re my dear stalker. whaaa.. from my blogspot, to friendster, to xanga, to livejournal, to myspace and even to multiply, you kept and keep following me. whaa! am i that special to you ? ahaha. damn girl. you`re so so so so LOW! get it ? COPY your ass, not other people`s. haha. if you want to have friends and not be a loner, change yourself. don`t overdream too much. haha. oh and one last thing, DO NOT TWIST THINGS around. i know you`re good at that, because that`s what pathetic copycats, ugly people with low life DO. ahaha. what now ?

whew girl! don`t love me too much. haha =)) wanna be like me ? KILL YOURSELF, first. you will never be like me. fucking remember that. don`t be a lesbo okayy ? haha. oh well. I MISS SUMMER.

I`M HOME.

"And although i havn't been able to be with you for awhile, i still think of you ; everytime i breathe".

yes! yes! yes! i`m home. haha. Ate Agnes dropped me off at around 3ish after we picked Alyssa up at her school. Lol. damn! am i the only one who thinks that roadtrips along Freeway are FUN ? haha =))

yesterday was uberly Fun [eww, is there such word? haha] at lunch, me and Christine didn`t know what to cook since both of us suck at cooking, so guess what we did ? haha. it may sound funny and corny and lame but we searched for some filipino recipes on the internet and printed a few copies of what we found. finally, we just decided to cook "pork adobo" for lunch. haha. i didn`t know you can put potatoes in adobo! haha. or, is it only us who actually put potatoes in it ? haha i dunno, we were completely lost on what we were doing so we ended up putting everything we had. hahaha =)) in the end, our adobo smelled so good, but we did something really really lame. we forgot about what we were cooking when we were watching tv so in return, our adobo got burnt. haha =)) it still tasted good though, so it didn`t matter. haha. we drank Margarita after we ate. yum yum! the lime one is soo freakin good that me and Christine finished the whole bottle. haha. pathetic drinkers. well, you can`t blame us. it`s soo damn good. haha. then uhh. i forgot what else happened that afternoon so by dinner, Christine`s mom cooked "beefsteak" and heck was it goood. then we opened another bottle of Margarita and this time, it was Strawberry flavored. haha! i still like the lime one better though. haha. anyways, as we were drinking, Christine thought it was good if we put some tequilla in it so we tried it, and hell. it tasted sooo bad. we tried it with salt but it still tasted bad, for me. i didn`t finish mine because the taste wasn`t really my type and i know that if i continue drinking it, i would vomit anytime soon, haha, so it`s better that i didn`t finish it all. well, Christine finished hers and damn, after like 10 minutes, she started vomiting in the kitchen sink. eeuuuuuww. haha. gross! haha keeding. thank God i didn`t drink mine all. ahaha! blame your cousin Christine. haha =)) it was fun though. i mean, it was a fun night. after eating and drinking and all, we decided to play cards up on the second floor [yupp, koz it`s a 3 story house so yeah.] haha. i won lots of times =)) then i fell asleep on the carpet. haha so i went upstairs to Christine`s room and went to sleep, then she followed. haha =)) it was a fun day/night (:

today, i woke up at ten (: then had breakfast, watched tv, went on myspace, surfed the damn net, played with Thea and Bubu [the cute lil puppy] and got bored. haha. i didn`t know what to do koz Christine was all sleeping in her parents' room. haha. so yeah! at around 2something, i left their beautiful house and got dropped off home by Ate Agnes (:

now i`m soo bored. haha. tomorrow`s another new day and i don`t know what to do. Intersession has officially started yesterday and i`m not in it. Thank God. my vacay started yesterday and it`ll last until October something. haha. i`m soo bored at home. i dunno how to spend my vacay wisely ;)

anyways, i`ll post a few pics from Joyce`s debut last Sunday and a few pics from yesterday as well. the rest are in my multiply so just go there if you wanna see all of 'em. haha. freakin Christine deleted all the pics she took from her camera in her multiply so i`ll only put a few here. haha. click to enlarge. anyway, scratch the last 3rd sentence out. i found the pics in Christine`s multiply already. ahaha dum dum!! okay!

i love these people :)

cheeese-in it (: with joyce`s casual wear.

i love my girls. pretty bitches!
we danced barefoot. ahaha. that`s how we roll man.

peeace everybody! do you need a makeup artist? you know how to contact me ;) i did my make up for your imformasyon.

yeah baby! dirty danced with the girls. haha! so so funn! shake it baby. lower, lower. haha.

more dance (:

haha wth am i doing ?

fun night (:

aawe! i hated this part, soo muchh! =(( wth Olive ? you didn`t take a picture of me and Brett dancing.. that`s messed up. haha keeding.

i looove all my friends. you should love yours too (: wait, do you have any friend ? ahaha

wheeeee..

Verzikhulo performance. whee! Go Kim. ahaha.

after the party, outside the venue. shit, we all looked so wasted already. haha.

i missed someone =((

18 candles with the debutant. spot me. haha =)) i was behind Joyce. i couldn`t get my ass in front koz the camera people were all rushing to take the picture. ahaha.

the most prettiest girl that night. damn, her dress is to die for. you`re soo freakin gorgeous Joyce. i love you. we all do :)

the most sweetest couple of the night. Lou and Jho [aka my ninang] (:

beeyooteeful girls plus JC on the back. hahaha.

kissy kissy (:

aawe! the "pee pee gee". i love you two (: my two besterest friends.. yay! "pee pee gee" rules (: i love you guys.

our table (:

aawe! i`m soo jelly -_- i wished he was there to dance with me too >.<

wow!

Joyce took this picture herself. haha Joyce, you`re supposed to be in the pic. ahaha.

i love Christine :)

tanan! the next day (: haha with Thea in the bathroom.

aawe. Thea fell asleep on the couch.

wheee! Margarita is love. ahaha. for adults only.nyay!

haha our adobo got burnt. and the meat was still quite hard. ahaha.

yumm. nestea.

the view from upstairs.

the cool wall tiles thing in the kitchen.

and again. with pj`s still. ahaha!

adobo.. yummy.

wahaha hala! it was Christine`s idea. and Joyce saw this in my multiply.. uwaahh!! Christine, hala.. ahaha. Joyce, i didn`t do it. it was Christine. wahaha! trouble.

Thea baby (:

wahaha.. this is Joyce`s reply from the picture in my multiply.. click the picture, then click again. ahaha =)) funny shit.


ahaha i dunno what to say anymore.